chocolate penis
what i would like to address first is that i am extremely offended by Courtney's last blog. how dare you think i would do that! and this may seem like im joking, and yes a part of me is. but most of me isnt. i would never do that to you dude. i thought you knew that *tear tear*. haha okay now im joking. but seriously that was really from Unicorn. i would not call you "love" haha. okay your probably wondering what the hell the title is about? well first thing this morning im bombarded by Walter with a chocolate penis pop. its really cute! but what i found disturbing was he had chocolate vagina pop's! it was so funny! so today is going pretty good. nothing astonishing happened but im not having any pant problems or any thing of that nature. im running on no sleep. and unlike yesterday when i was way hyper, today im tired as hell. and hungry. i should go to lunch. but its to late now. theres a show tonight. sadly i dont think im going. which sucks because its free and my 2 favorite bands are playing.
oh awesome news that i kind of forgot about. i found this quote that i really want to get tattooed on me. now just a little background information. ive always wanted to get a quote tattooed on me. but i wanted it to be something that represented me and something that i loved. and i found it.
"We are the makers of music and we are the dreamers of dreams."
-Willy Wonka
pretty awesome right? o.m.gee. i cant wait to get it. just knowing how amazing of an artist Ricky Oh! is and all the possible things he could come up with to make it that much more awesome is like thrilling. you know?
i have a meeting today at 2:00. its for student officers. im treasurer. i need to find out if theres actually a meeting though because i have a feeling the chick is lying to me about it. oh well.
well im going to go talk to Rossi for a bit before i have to go back to health.
this has been fun kids...
Thursday, February 28, 2008 * 8:40 AM
school woe's
let me say for the record that college sucks! it sucks majorly!i hate how my mind is more focused on college and the future then it is on passing the 11th grade. im really bad about not coming to school on time, or not coming. its thursday now and i was late on monday and i didnt come tuesday or wednesday. i swore to myself that this semester would be better, but it seems that its just as worse as the first one. i already know that if [and i would like to emphasize the word IF] i pass high school, im going to the local community college. then ill be transferring to a 4 year college. but the problem is, i need to fucking pass my junior year!!!
why is this so damn hard!?
is it hard for any of you?
let me know, would ya?
on a better note. this day is going by pretty good. im in LPP right now [this should be my lunch] and as said in a previous blog, i dont go to lunch. but i neglected to mention that once a week, i do go to lunch. for the simple fact that my bff Courtney is in that lunch and i would like to eat once in a while. my hair looks cute though. for those of you who dont know. my hair is pink and orange.
its pretty feirce.
and its short.
about chin length.
and right now, as i type it is in pigtails.
cute ones.
really cute ones.
you would be jealous.
i know it.
there is this really annoying boy that Courtney and i call Pineapple sitting behind me talking about how hot Lidnesy Lohan is. i'll admit she is pretty hot. for a drug addicted child star has been that is. wow and theres this really annoying girl that is talking about a little girl from China that gave her dad something that smells like Jasmine. this blog is quite exciting, isnt it?
well because i have nothing else to really talk about, ill save you all from killing yourselves from this EXTREMELY boring blog.
untill tomorrow loves...or later.
Monday, February 25, 2008 * 8:34 PM
private eye-reen!
i should be a private eye. im a very sneaky individual when it comes to finding out information. right now im investigating if my best buddy's crush likes her. and he doesnt even know! o.m.gee. i cant get this commercial out of my skull! its with a unicorn and a gnome and some guys and they skip down a street singing "its the magical amount" but i dont know what amount their talking about. and why is it magical!tomorrow is going to be fun. i have my favorite class 4th block. i just found out today that my teacher Rossi hung out with Britney Spears a couple years ago. im way jealous. then after school im picking up my sister and nephew and bringing them to see an appartment. then were going to hang out after. then my friend Chad is coming over with his dog Lil Bit so we can try and mate his dog with my dog Quita. sounds like a fun afternoon right!?
so im getting farther along then i thought i would with the whole investigating the crush. lets call him Subject X from now on. okay now Subject X is being a pain in my ass. hes asking me questions! thats not how its supposed to go. im the one asking the questions here, but i dont think he understands that. YES i got the answer i was hoping for! kinda. i havent got THE answer. the one that truely counts, but i think the answer i did get is good for now. omg Subject X is a whore!
wow this blog is kind of weird. oh well. hopefully ill have an update on the whole Subject X thing.
untill tomorrow...
* 8:52 AM
broken pants!?
i hate school. it seems that whenever i walk through those badly decorated dirty glass doors my life becomes chaos. and no im not exaggerating. once again i have a pants crisis. im not going to sugarcoat it. im overweight and if you know me, you know that. on april 22nd, only a few days after my 18th birthday, i have my very first meeting at the bariatric center to talk to some doctors about gastric bypass surgery. anywhoo, because im so overweight [the tech term is obese] im forced to order my pants through a catalog. sure i can wear sweatpants like every other fat person in america. but i like style and i like my jeans, so im not going to humilate myself anymore by wearing those sweats. in the beginning of the year i had two pairs of jeans. then it went down to one because on one pair the zipper busted. then i ordered three pair. one was to small. the other two were tight but wearable. now im raised my by mom and my dad only helps out by giving us 40 dollars a week. cheap i know. and we obviously have rent and other bills that need to be paid. and its difficult with only one income so i know that i cant order pants every week. but when im only down to one pair of pants because the button popped off and the zipper broke on one, i think its time to order some new ones right?? apparently my mom didnt think so. well now shes forced to. getting into the car this morning my button popped off. not to mention i was already late for school. my life is shit sometimes. just like everyones.dont get me wrong either, i love myself. and people love me. im funny, smart, pretty, and a bunch of other things. but i do wish i was skinner. i dont even want to say skinny though. i want to be healthy and the way im living now is far from healthy. but i have a disease and i know that. hopefully i can get approved for this surgery, and i know its not the answer. i know ill have to work hard but having the surgery would help out alot. wow this is like the first time i ever talked about this. very relieving.
so im supposed to be at lunch right now but i never go. i dont hang out with anybody in my lunch. and im not going to sit at a table alone and give the losers who dont have anything else to do but pick on me something to talk about. but you know, my school is cool about that. which is weird. you would think being an innercity school the kids would be asswholes and make fun of anything they dont like. true the kids are asswholes but there have only been a select few times ive been teased here. i was teased more at a catholic school then at a public one. weird.
well lunch is over and i have to get back to health, and Rossi has to get back to teaching his batch of deliquents. did i spell that right?
Sunday, February 24, 2008 * 3:51 PM
old flames
what do you do when they come back into your life? i know what he wants and hes not getting it. its annoying. so is he. i currently do not have a boyfriend/girlfriend and im extremely content with that. sure its nice to have someone. someone you can call when you need cheering up, someone you can cuddle with. but right now im cool with not having that someone. i have my friends to cheer me up and i have my dogs to cuddle with. thats all a girl really needs isnt it!?Saturday, February 23, 2008 * 9:18 PM
random dancing
so this is my first official blog. its quite exciting. should have been done days ago though. i really hope im going to keep up with this. so today was pretty fricking sweet. Courtney came over and i painted her nails. there kinda feirce. then when we were leaving we made the most funniest video of us dancing randomly outside in the freezing cold. its one of those things you have to see i guess. i just found out some awesome news. im going to try and not get my hopes up though. my unicorn friend Zak [yes there real] might bring me to this awesome show coming up. i only really want to go for two bands but their the best bands ever!check them out:
www.myspace.com/honorbrightny
www.myspace.com/holdingsolace
so besides that, i have some awesome things coming up in the future. numero uno is my birthday! i so can not wait for that, and i know alot of people that are mighty excited as well. im turning 18 and i never imagined spending my 18th birthday like this. at 12:30 my bff Courtney and i will be at Scarab getting my Honor Bright tattoo. i can not wait for that. neither can a whole bunch of people. then after that [not sure what time] Courtney and i will be going to the 315 In Ruins Fest where Honor Bright will be playing! yes im kinda sorta extremely obessesed with them. then the day after my birthday im getting another tattoo, but this one will be with my mom. then im going gambling! besides my birthday the only thing i really have coming up are shows. lots of them.
school starts again monday. kind of looking forward to it. kind of not. school sucks for me this year, and im not really sure why. i failed miserably the first semester so i need to work my ass off to pass this semester. i already have to do summer school. this isnt how i imagined my junior year to be. ill fix it though. im determined to. well Courtney, Zak, and i are having a conversation sort of thing through our myspace status's. its pretty funny. theres nothing else to really talk about.
so until tomorrow my friends...
straightedge.