i need a break from this kaleidoscope world

Warning: this blog might be a little on the long side!


okay so i have a whole things to talk about in um 4 minutes. thats when So You Think You Can Dance comes on..

1-last sunday i went to see Ricky Oh! with Courtney. we got there an hour later then i had originally had planned but we still got there. the night before that Courtney had drawn my tattoo, so i wouldnt have to show Ricky my awful version. hers was amazing. she replicated my flower from a phone picture. so after talking to him for a little bit, he told me he would contact me via myspace with the price so i can start saving. i then had to talk to him about Stevens tattoos, so i could tell Steven. all in all it was a fun few minutes. when we got there he was painting this amazing picture of a womans face. the final product is breathtaking. but Rickys work always is.

2-two days ago i hung out with Heather and Jayden. wow has that boy gotten big. he turned one on the 17th and i found out they havent done anything yet which is sort of good. because when they do i can go. it was fun playing with him. hes my lil cutie pie. hes never been to a park before so we walked to Ported Park where i pushed him in the swing. he was having fun untill he started to fall asleep from the motion.. haha! i found out for certain that Heather is pregnant again. were both hoping for a girl, but we dont care as long as the babys healthy.

3-so at Melindas house theres this new rule where the kids have to be off by 11 every night. well last night i was on and Jud came into the room tapping his wrist where a watch would be and said "its after 11, you know the rules" so i asked him because i was being quiet and it was just me if i could stay on and he said no. so i was like whatever. so i went back to my sims game so i could save it. well that took forever! and i mean forever! it was being incredibly slow. so after i saved my game. i added a picture of me a Jayden really quick and did the blog below this one. well it was about 11:30 when i was done and i got off and my mom and i left. my whole thing is.. why cant i stay on longer when its just me. i can understand when they have 54 kids here. but when its just me why cant i stay on longer. i mean was being quiet. so basically i wanted to kill him. and i succeeded in that i might have went to prison. then i could have been on one of those Lockup shows. yay!

4-okay so this one is kind of OMG! i had a talk with my mom the other day about the whole phone situation. we agreed that i would wait untill i got a job so i could get my own phone and after she payed rent she would get internet so things like #3 wont happen anymore. well the day i hung out with Heather i asked Jeremey's son Kody if i could use his phone for a couple months untill i could afford to buy a new one. he said it wasnt a problem. so he gave me the phone and i told my mom about it. she didnt seem to have a problem with it and said that it would get turned on by the end of the week. well today im sitting at the picnic table waiting for her to come pick me up so we can go get it turned on when she walks up behind me and sets a phone down in front of me. basically i was sort of confused but understood she just bought me a new phone. she told me that getting a used phone turned on would be just as much as getting a new phone so she thought shed get me a new one instead. and it'll stay on as long as i start helping her around the house..
yes im very lazy when it comes to housework!
so i went home and did what she asked me. its not my dream phone or anything. id really like a camera phone. but its small and cute and mine! so im very pumped about that. now i dont have to use hers all the time!

5-the other night my mom and i went to Blockbuster to return and rent a few movies. i came across this brilliant film called Love and Other Disasters. its about a girl who sets up her friends with possible love interests while not trying to find love for herself. well love shows up for her in the form of an Argentinian man who she believes is gay. it all takes place in Londen. you must watch it. my new love for the name Tullulah has come from this movie. and when i have my first girl i will name her that. its the most amazing name ever! just imagine the nicknames..
Tully, Lulah, Lulu.. omg its positivly the cutest name ever. i think i might change my name to it..
what do you think??

6-sims2 is my new favorite past time. ive set most of my house up. i just have to do the back/front yard and the living room.. oh and the kitchen. i have my family. its amazing. we should play together!!

7-so theres not many more shows this month. but there is one on friday. VersaEmerge is playing at the Westcott. that must be my favorite place for shows, besides Funk N' Waffles. we get to see Soundguy Mike! i think thats the main reason were going actually. VersaEmerge is amazing and so is the other band thats playing called Our Last Night. not sure who else is playing except for This Changes Everything. cant stand them. they just creep me out. especially the drummer. he looks like Satan when hes drumming. im bringing money though so i can buy VE's and OLN's cd. new music rules face! im also bringing my camera so expect to see some pictures up after that.









okay thats the whole list that i needed to remind myself about. i have to pee and im an hour and a half late on watching So You Think You Can Dance..
no i dont type slow. i was preoccupied with myspace, meebo, and a new site i found.
speaking of that new site..
its called dressupchallenge.com its wicked fun and amusing for a child like person such as myself. you can dress up these little dolls and do other stuff. but unlike other sites as this the clothes are wicked cute!
i know im childish! but why grow up when theres still time to stay young!
okay im going to pee. and i know Melinda wants to get on..

























im sort of obsessed with The Academy Is now.


Love me or leave me or rip me apart
This is the voice that i was given and
If you don't like it take a long walk
Off of the shortest pier you can find
And I'll be singing it out I'll be singing...

posted by irenejayne at 4:45 PM 0 Comments

reminders fer meself

when i actually have time to blog i have to talk about..

1-going to see Ricky
2-hanging out with Heather and Jayden
3-how i might go to jail for murder
4-new cellie!
5-my love for the name Tullulah
6-sims
7-show on friday

i think thats it..
if i remember more, ill write it on paper.




see you when i can actually blog!

posted by irenejayne at 8:28 PM 0 Comments

Friday, June 20, 2008 * 8:17 PM

lets be discrete about being an asshole

so i havent posted in a long long time.
and everytime something has happened ive said "i need to blog.."
im kind of addicted..

anywho, tuesday night courtney came to spend the night for two days because of her regents. that was a blasty blast. wednesday after her test she went with her mom, and i didnt know because i was dead asleep. well when i woke up i had a heart attack because i thought she got kidnapped or something. what a bitch!
we hung out for awhile. ordered chinese. went to melinda to watch So You Think You Can Dance. it was an all around good day.
i didnt go to bed until 6:30 and i had to wake up at 9 for a 10:20 eye appointment. i woke up at 9:45.
we rushed to get dressed and there on time.
we made it.
did all the normal stuff.. filled out papers, got air blown in my eyes, got to have the huge machine in front of my eyes with the doctor asking if
"which is better? one or two?"
speaking of the doctor.. she was a bitch. i went there for glasses not a lecture on taking my exams and school in general. i get that enough at home.
anyways, as i predicted i needed glasses. i had already found my frames when i got there so at 3 i was supposed to go get my new amazing glasses.
what do you think??



pretty spiffy huh? after we left Empire Vision we stopped at subway because we were hungry and Courtney needed to eat something before her test. well right before we walk into Subway, who do you think walks in before us??
Brothers, We Grow.. thats who!
well 3 members of it.
it was extremely awkward, especially because i became a stalker and secretly took a picture to send to Erin. Courtney and i were kind of disappointed because it would have been amazing to see Honor Bright or anybody like that. Courtney and i got in a little debate over the tomatos. shes going to die soon. i just know it.
in the car we ate our sub. my mom dropped us off so she could take her final regents and i could talk to the counselor. my mom picked me up and we ran erronds.
walmart, empire vision, some weird new store.
i got 2 new tongue rings that say STOP and GO [like the street signs]
i slept the rest of the day..

today i woke up around 1 and got ready for my mom to bring me back to Empire Vision because i needed to get my glasses tightened. we again went to subway.
i <3 subway!
we went back to that weird new store and i got a new comforter set. we went to Fast-Trak Wireless to look at phone prices. i need my own phone desperatly.
i watched a new movie. delivered with Debbie for awhile. went over to Melinda's house. nothing really special.

i want to start a band. im very serious about it. i thought i had the name, but i just thought of a new one.. let me know which one you prefer.

Carrot Cake Murder
Candy Cane Murder

merch ideas are flooding my brain right at this moment. this weekend would have been fun if The Doppler Effect hadnt canceled their show. ugh! thats the second band and the third show thats been canceled. tomorrow theres a barb-q. should be okay. sunday though i am going to see Ricky Oh! about the rest of my chest. its really hard to discribe in words but let me try.
a quote by Holding Solace's song Rock, Paper, Scissors.. "the orchestra will play along"
that will be along my colar bone. "rays" of sun coming out from behind my lotus flower [thats already there] and stars in the "rays"..
did i do a good job? if not i guess you just have to see it..
i also have to talk to him about Steven's tattoo. anything to talk to Ricky! haha

okay im being rushed. its been a blast..









i love you blogger<333

posted by irenejayne at 8:17 PM 0 Comments

Monday, June 16, 2008 * 7:39 PM

chaotic amazing nights

so last night was a blasty-blast!
it started out a mess though..
the show which we thought was at 3 turned out to be at 6. big drama there. when we finally got there at quarter to 6 nobody was there. and i mean nobody. okay one band, but that was it. after paying the kid that lived there, we started talking to this guy name DaveGunn who's in a band called Chaos Con Queso. he was hilarious. but he was really worried that nobody would show because his band drove 3 hours to get there. so every time a car full of white people drove by he would say..

"look its a car of white people, maybe there in a band!"
"they have nice hair, they must be in a band!"

omg it was the funniest thing! after Burton from Bookend Victories/Scary Ghosts showed up we went upstairs and hung out untill the bands started to play. Scary Ghost [Burton] was up first. his new sound was really cool. very mellow and mature. but his new personality sucked. next was Brothers, We Grow. Erin didnt like them, but their sound was pretty fantastic.

Go All Out never showed. their was some major confusion on their part. it bummed us all out to the point where we were going to leave but then didnt because of DaveGunn and his band. so because GAO never showed they had to fill the time slot. which bugged me because i had to leave and go babysit Jeremy's kids while they went grocery shopping. and the band that played were two guys that lived in the house and in my personal opinion they fucking sucked. you couldnt hear a thing they said because the guitar was WAY TO loud and the singer Matt screamed the lyrics. the only good thing out of them was a song called "Cornbread" wich was [i have to admit] pretty amazing. so finally after they played DaveGunn's band Chaos Con Queso played.
now they were something. you must check out their music now.
go on.. ill give you a minute..

do do do do do do do
do do do do
do do do do
do do do do do do do
do
do do do
do do
do

haha okay now that your rocking out to their music. ill finish talking about last night. we had to leave in the middle of their set which bummed us out. but they called us sweethearts and said they loved us.
once we left i went to Jeremys to watch Heaven and Kody, okay they were sleeping so i watched tv. i got 5 bucks out of it, which is going towards my tattoo fund.

speaking of that. im basically screwed on money now because i might not be babysitting. so im going job hunting crazy so i can get some money because im dead set on getting my tattoo in early august and my hair done before school.
im going to see Ricky on thursday after my eye apointment. that should be fun. i can talk to him about what colors will be good for my skin and how much its going to cost.

so this summer is starting out as a drag..
heres hoping it gets better..














The Doppler Effect next sunday! woot-woot!

posted by irenejayne at 7:39 PM 0 Comments

Sunday, June 15, 2008 * 11:09 AM

Holding Solace & Team Goldie

HOLY CROW!
the show on friday was amazing! HS and TG never cease to amaze me.
the night started off with Erin, Courtney, and i meeting this amazing weird kid named Jon. but we named him Fred, George, Phillup, and Phillis.

we then had all of Holding Solace and all of Honor Bright [minus Liam] sign our arms!
nobody would sign my forehead except Matt from TG, but we both forgot :o(
the actual set started off with This Changes Everything. i dont know what my problem is, i just dont like their music. they had a new song that i liked but other than that their kind of boring for music.

Holding Solace was up next, what can i say. their incredible. Matt was not his normal self which kind of bugged me. but everyone has their bad days, friday must have been his. Nik and i sang together a million times. his breath smells good :o) Ricky told me he wanted beer instead of water. but im pretty sure Funk N' Waffles doesnt sell beer, haha. Timmy came up as a "guest singer" because it was his birthday. i sang with him a bunch of times too. it was literally one of the best performances ive seen from them. it made me smile.

after Holding Solace was Team Goldie.. Syracuse has missed that boy<3
at the beginning of his set i was actually sitting in the back on the floor, because i was dying of thirst and my feet were asleep. weird.
but then he started going on about band-aids. he told everyone how he needed another band-aid and how he asked a few girls [us] when he first got there if we had one. to which i told him i had hello kitty ones at home. after that i screamed to him that i was in the back [because he said "where is she"] he told me to come up and party so i did. it was so much fun!
after him i bought his new EP, 2 buttons, and a patch. we then left to go sit at Dunkin Donuts to wait for my mom.



tonight im going to Castle Rockmoore to party with the hot guys in Go All Out.. oh and Burton from Bookend Victories. it will be amazing! Court, Erin, and i had heart attacks earlier because of the show time being changed. but all is good now.
i have to go home to shower. and i have to get batteries. school is over with FINALLY! but i still have to do summer school.
so i finally know what tattoo i want for Holding Solace. i just have to go talk to Ricky about it because its really difficult to explain it in words. just know its amazing. i start babysitting for Jeremy soon so ill money for it. im pumped.
okay i have to go and get ready for the show...















i called you up and i didn't get an answer.
you said "baby, you're a heartbreakdancer."

posted by irenejayne at 11:09 AM 0 Comments

Friday, June 13, 2008 * 8:57 AM

we cant be peter pan, we must grow up at some point

this morning started out amazing.
old guys singing "im the real slim shady".
hot guys trying to chop down a tree stump..?
wandering around resembling a gypsy.

what could be better than all of that!?!?
Holding Solace and Team Goldie thats what!
6 hours and counting untill i see them. i hear Matt from TG has a new cd, its a must buy!
i miss HS extremely bad, i need there amazing tunes to rock out to.
hopefully i can get a waffle! that would be divine..

Courtney didnt expect to see me today and when i walked down the hall the look on her face was to die for. last block i read the HB street team chat that took place on wednesday. it was hilarious. Curt made a surprise appearence. and i found out his uncle plays the accordian. haha!
im trying to find the picture of the hair style im getting but i cant find it!
ive just come to realize that basically all scene girls look the same. its really a shame, because you can do so much different shit with the style.
school is over in about 2 hours.
im stoked!
thats a good word, stoked!


so today while i was waiting for my mom to take me to school, i just started thinking about the world and life in general really. my life couldnt be any more awesome than it is at this exact moment. okay maybe it could be a little more awesome. school could be better but other than that.. i have amazing friends, my music taste is growing rapidly. speaking of which i just found an awesome band called Red Car Wire. check them out..
oh and maybe i could get a boy/girlfriend. that would be pretty sweet. somebody to share things with besides Court and my mom. other than that, life is grand. i couldnt help thinking of other peoples lives, and how their life could be better. which got me into the kids in africa and other 3rd world countris like that. how americans are so ungrateful for the things they have. and these people are amazed that they could get something to eat for the night.

i need to stop thinking about this stuff because its getting me depressed.
wow im in 4th block which is my Tech Theatre class. and were making videos for our final project. this girl Ashley who resembles a whore is basically going to dance like one for 5 minutes. then again its Fowler. what can you expect? besides pregnant 15 year old. maybe shes pregnant..
i can not express my annoyence at the moment! you really should see this girl dance. she looks like a man in pain!




i have to get off othe computer. this blog was everywhere. BYE

posted by irenejayne at 8:57 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, June 11, 2008 * 8:03 PM

hot guys in speedos

i miss the show Full House, dont you?
i watched PS-I Love You last night for the first time. total tearjerker. it was amazing. tonight im going to watch August Rush.
i know ive been talking about friday and sunday alot but i just found out sunday will be more amazing because Bookend Victories is playing at Castle Rockmoore. i think hes playing with GO All Out, not positve.
but Go All Out will be in speedos, which is so hot!

theres really nothing to blog about. i missed So You Think You Can Dance because children were swimming with there asses out. not cool. i helped Melinda make her myspace. i uploaded pictures onto my myspace. drank some coffee. frosted a cake. ooh i want some of that..

like i said this blog has no point.
heres a poem for your enjoyment and confusion..


I Am My Own Grandpa

Many many years ago when I was twenty three,
I got married to a widow who was pretty as could be.
This widow had a grown-up daughter
Who had hair of red.
My father fell in love with her,
And soon the two were wed.
This made my dad my son-in-law
And changed my very life.
My daughter was my mother,
For she was my father's wife.

To complicate the matters worse,
Although it brought me joy,
I soon became the father
Of a bouncing baby boy.

My little baby then became
A brother-in-law to dad.
And so became my uncle,
Though it made me very sad.

For if he was my uncle,
Then that also made him brother
To the widow's grown-up daughter
Who, of course, was my step-mother.

Father's wife then had a son,
Who kept them on the run.
And he became my grandson,
For he was my daughter's son.

My wife is now my mother's mother
And it makes me blue.
Because, although she is my wife,
She's my grandmother, too.

If my wife is my grandmother,
Then I am her grandchild.
And every time I think of it,
It simply drives me wild.

For now I have become
The strangest case you ever saw.
As the husband of my grandmother,
I am my own grandpa!






<3

posted by irenejayne at 8:03 PM 0 Comments

Tuesday, June 10, 2008 * 8:58 PM

this is ending... now

nice to meet you too..
okay let me make myself a little clearer. i dislike Stacey for many different reasons besides Honor Bright, so dont think thats the only reason i can not stand her..
and im sorry, i wont stop defending something i believe in. so theres no point in thinking im going to. and yes i understand people grow out of bands. it still doesnt give them the right to talk shit about them.
oh and does it seem like im whining? it doesnt seem that way to me. im just speaking my mind, just like Stacey did.
but besides all of that, this shit needs to stop. i tried stopping it but you seem to want to keep going..
so how about we both be mature and end it??
sound good..


i didnt wake up for school on time. oh well. theres only like 3 days left. i read for awhile. watched a movie. went out into the pouring rain which felt delicious after being in a hot ass house all day.
at around 9:45 i went outside to hang out with James for a few minutes. wow it was weird. were both just really different people now. im younger than him and im way more mature. he has a child and a fiance and hes still acts like a child. its sad really. but he was my first love so i cant help not feel something towards him.
last night i got extremely freaked out. i thought my bearded dragon Penelope had died in the heat. but no, she was just in a really deep sleep. she hasnt had her light on in 4 days thats how hot is in my room [Court said she felt like she was an asian child working in a sweat shop when we made our shirts saturday]..
after i discovered Penelope was okay i held her for a bit and noticed that shes getting some color which is pretty cool, seeing as how i wanted a colored dragon.
i also found out that my chihuahua Quita loves strawberry sparkling water. it was hilarious watching her try and get the bottle open.

ive just uploaded a shit of pictures from the Go All Out show a few weeks back. their playing this sunday in a hot ass attic. so im sure ill die by the end of the night. Holding Solace and Team Goldie are playing at Funk N' Waffles. wicked excited for that show. its going to be a Matt filled day.

alright i have to go, Debbie wants to get on the computer..
untill tomorrow or untill something facinating happens..

posted by irenejayne at 8:58 PM 0 Comments

Monday, June 9, 2008 * 7:12 PM

anonymous commenter

to answer your question..
yes i am on Honor Brights street team, are you?
i understand fully that Stacey has a right to her own opinion. everyone is. but the problem i have with Stacey and im pretty sure ive made this point in a previous blog. shes fake. and like Ryan pointed out. if you dont like them thats fine, but dont talk shit about them having.. wait let me use her exact words..

"the new songs show no musical growth whatsoever."

so basically you meant they have no talent, am i right? as ive said, people are intitled to have their own opinion, but dont talk shit about them and then show up, sing the words, and act like your their biggest fan. its annoying and childish. plus it makes you seem like the jackass rather then anyone else.
and as far as burying the hatchet.. we tried. literally the blog below this one states that, and Courtney blogged about it as well. you just opened shit up again.

and why dont you be the "mature" one and state your name. commenting as anonymous is childish and it only says you want attention.
enough with that..



i died Courtneys hair today. it looked pretty awesome, even though i couldnt see the actual color because she refused to dry it. oh well. i went swimming at Melindas. the water felt divine. im going home to make a GO All OUT shirt for school tomorrow.
FOUR MORE DAYS!!













heres the deffiniton of the day..
Fake verb :to pretend
learn it.

posted by irenejayne at 7:12 PM 1 Comments

Sunday, June 8, 2008 * 8:53 PM

she has a point..

i dont feel like adding on to the Taste Of Syracuse blog, so why not start a new one..

Courtney makes a good point. blog fighting is actually very childish. i basically blogged about Stacey because she blogged about my boys. i recognize that i had no right to because she never actually blogged about me. but whatever, whats done is done. and im not deleting it!
i hate Stacey for personal and not personal reasons and that will never change. but ill quit blogging about you if it makes you happy.

one last thing..
your a stuck up bitch who resembles a poodle on crack!
oh and you Molly should just admit your in a relationship, we all know anyways.

okay im done with that.
on to better things. there are mega shows this month..
Go All Out, Holding Solace, Team Goldie, The Brilliant Light, The Doppler Effect..
amazing i know.
and im going to every single one of them!
im dying Courtney's hair tomorrow. the dye is called Pomegranate. its pretty feirce.
school ends for Court and i on friday. i dont think anybody is going on the "real" half day.
i have to sign up for summer school. that will suck. but i need to do it if i want to graduate on time.















sing for life.
sing for choices.
sing for everyone without voices.
sing for love.
sing for laughter.
sing for everyone here and after.
sing for fear.
sing for hatred.
sing for everyone less than sacred.

posted by irenejayne at 8:53 PM 1 Comments

* 2:45 PM

Taste Of Syracuse

so yesterday Court and i went to the Taste Of Syracuse. for me it was a first. we got there late because we had to make our shirts for HB. i was late meeting Shannon, but then again she was late as well.
i never made it to the Pride Parade, oh well. theres always next year.

Honor Bright played at 7. like always there were amazing. no change there..
there was this really old drunk guy in front of the stage before they started playing that was grabbing girls on "accident". he then proceded to grab Zach from Holding Solace and pound the shit out of his back. meanwhile Zach looked the scardest hes ever been.. it was pretty funny because Zachs departing words once the guy let him go was..

"what the fuck was that!"

ahh good times. we hung out with Zak and his crazy friend throughout the show. his friend was weird. all i have to say is that he licked my bubble!
after Honor Bright played we watched Anorexic Beauty Queen. suprisingly i loved them. some bands just sound better live then on myspace. haha.
after there set we went over to the HB merch table where we found out that Stacey had actually showed her face. i would think after being called out as one of the fakest people to walk this earth she wouldnt dare come to another HB show. let alone sing along and jump around like a poodle hyped up on redbull. Timmy and Ryan seemed to be the most pissed off about it. Liam and Curt didnt really seem to care [even though they do]. and i never talked to Anthony about it. Courtney and i were pissed. we decided that the whole street team will kill her..
YAY!

anywho, after that we walked around looking for something to eat with Erin and her friend Kara [Cara?]. we found these delishious panini's at some stand, cant remember the name of it. we left soon after that..

getting to Melinda's i was going to go swimming but i decided not to.
we were at her house untill about one in the morning. after leaving we went to Fast Track to get drinks. and i got ICE CREAM! the kind ive been craving.. COOKIE DOUGH! but it sucked. i guess theres only one kind i like. Edy's Cookie Dough ice cream is the shiz!















okay i guess my mom and i are leaving to go to chinese with Tina. ew, i hope Sheri isnt with her.

i just found this amazing band from PA..
Boy Girl Sleepover
their amazing!!
search them on myspace and give them a listen to!

posted by irenejayne at 2:45 PM 4 Comments

Thursday, June 5, 2008 * 3:57 PM

im fucking proud of who i am

so i just found out theres a gay parade on saturday. it starts at 11. and im going.

i just got into this huge arguement with Melinda's father about gay people.
he's basically saying that..
gay people have weak immune systems
their the ones that started the aids epidemic
gay people have mental diseases, its been proven

stupid shit like that. it just pisses me off. it really does. i told him i think hes just a straight guy that bashes things/people/ideas that are different.
he didnt like that very much.

i dont know how im going to go to the parade. i was supposed to go get my eyes checked. but this is very important.
ive been bisexual for awhile now. for a long time i didnt tell anybody for fear of regection. i finally came to my senses and said "fuck everybody else, this is who i am!"
now i know i havent been with any girls. but i know in my heart of hearts that this is what i am. i was just told that im not.
thanks for informing me asshole!

i need to get a shirt and other rainbow items.. im wondering where to get them.
maybe i can just make them! i dont know. im wicked excited though now.
ill blog with more info later!

posted by irenejayne at 3:57 PM 0 Comments

Wednesday, June 4, 2008 * 9:50 PM

the crying question

why when you have to cry and you're trying to hold it back, it feels like theres a HUGE lump in the back of your throat?
and why does it hurt??

posted by irenejayne at 9:50 PM 0 Comments

* 8:40 AM

your the boss, applesauce!

my stomach hurts and i have recycling bumper stickers on my shirt.
life is grand..

so Court and i went to The Last Battle show on monday. WOW i almost died of the heat! it was in an attic of this huge on the south side. the attic was kind of amazing though. if it was done up right it could very cool. i can totally imagine couches and disco balls and mini fridges. haha. i was disappointed though. The Last Battle was amazing and there was this other band called I Refuse which was kind of good but not really.. the other bands sucked majorly.

Court is behind me and she is LAMMMMME!

so i finally got to watch Factory Girl, if you havent seen it you need to watch it ASAP! its this dandy little tale about Andy Warhol and the girl he made famous Edie Sedgewick..



watch it now!! theres two shows this weekend. Honor Bright on saturday and Go All Out on sunday. im pumped. except i just found out Steven might not be able to go :o(
that makes me sad. so i was once again pissed off at my mom. monday night after the show i was wicked hungry but it was too late to ask her to make me something because the shop was going to close. so she said she was going over to Melinda's for a few minutes and would get me McDonald's. i told her to "please be quick because im tired".
do you think she was quick about it??
of course she wasnt. it was 12:54 when she got back.. and i was a centimeter away from dream land. after telling her angrily that i was fucking tired and wanted to eat an hour ago so i could get some decent sleep she gave me some bull-shit excuse about Melinda's dogs getting into a fight and now she has a broken finger and her dad Jud got banged up pretty badly.
wow boo-fucking-hoo!
wow she broke her finger. go to the fucking hospital!
my mom could have at least called me and told me so i wouldnt have gotten pissed off about it and all.
so the next morning i didnt go to school, because i was beyond exhausted. so that fucked up my plan of going for the rest of the year!!

next year will be different. i hope.














Cuz I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
And I can split the atom of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule

posted by irenejayne at 8:40 AM 0 Comments

Monday, June 2, 2008 * 7:31 AM

for Courtney and Steven :oP

this weekend was horrible.
ive never felt more depressed about my life. which is weird because if you know me, im a very upbeat person. but for some reason the shitty side of my life caught up with me. i realized two things though..
1- im losing my mother to under-cover aliens
2- i have two of the most amazing friends in the world
let me explain.. ive talked to my mom several times about the whole "Melinda" situation. my attempts at derailing their friendship have failed, so im calling it quits. if my mothers wants people like the Britton family as her friends, so be it. shes a big girl. when she gets hurt in the end, she'll be able to handle it, right?
lets hope!

now about my second realization. if it werent for Courtney and Steven i think i actually might have lost it this weekend. anytime i needed comforting there were a phone call away [or in Stevens case a text message away!] you guys may not have known it but every time i text or called i was close to breaking down. but i knew i could depend on you guys.

Court, your just my buddy, my bff Jill, my bestie, my homegurrl, my amiga, my partner in crime, my family. i can always depend on you no matter what the situation is. saturday you had me in tears because i was laughing so hard. and now i cant even remember what it was about! and im sorry i said those things. i really was just joking around. although part of me [a microscopic part] thought life would be easier for all around me if i wasnt around. everyone has those thoughts when life turns to mud right before their eyes. i think you know me well enough that i could never go through with something like that. but never-the-less im sorry if i scared you in any way.

Steven i knew if i needed cheering up you were the one to "text". answer your phone sometimes! i still cant believe we were texting for 5 hours! it was an awesome 5 hours though.. i learned so much about you. who knew we had so much in common! were on the same page about almost everything. kind of creepy i must say! but seriously you are an amazing human being and im extremely glad we've become pals :o)

i love you guys<33




so i went to my Nana's house on sunday. it was great fun! we had dinner and then watched tennis! it was the most boring 4 hours ever! whoever likes tennis is purely insane! so tonight is The Last Battle show! im pumped and a little nervous. ive never been to a house show before and thats what it is. and this is my friend Joe's band so its weird. but whatever!
class is over, gotta go!

posted by irenejayne at 7:31 AM 0 Comments