for Courtney and Steven :oP
this weekend was horrible.ive never felt more depressed about my life. which is weird because if you know me, im a very upbeat person. but for some reason the shitty side of my life caught up with me. i realized two things though..
1- im losing my mother to under-cover aliens
2- i have two of the most amazing friends in the world
let me explain.. ive talked to my mom several times about the whole "Melinda" situation. my attempts at derailing their friendship have failed, so im calling it quits. if my mothers wants people like the Britton family as her friends, so be it. shes a big girl. when she gets hurt in the end, she'll be able to handle it, right?
lets hope!
now about my second realization. if it werent for Courtney and Steven i think i actually might have lost it this weekend. anytime i needed comforting there were a phone call away [or in Stevens case a text message away!] you guys may not have known it but every time i text or called i was close to breaking down. but i knew i could depend on you guys.
Court, your just my buddy, my bff Jill, my bestie, my homegurrl, my amiga, my partner in crime, my family. i can always depend on you no matter what the situation is. saturday you had me in tears because i was laughing so hard. and now i cant even remember what it was about! and im sorry i said those things. i really was just joking around. although part of me [a microscopic part] thought life would be easier for all around me if i wasnt around. everyone has those thoughts when life turns to mud right before their eyes. i think you know me well enough that i could never go through with something like that. but never-the-less im sorry if i scared you in any way.
Steven i knew if i needed cheering up you were the one to "text". answer your phone sometimes! i still cant believe we were texting for 5 hours! it was an awesome 5 hours though.. i learned so much about you. who knew we had so much in common! were on the same page about almost everything. kind of creepy i must say! but seriously you are an amazing human being and im extremely glad we've become pals :o)
i love you guys<33
so i went to my Nana's house on sunday. it was great fun! we had dinner and then watched tennis! it was the most boring 4 hours ever! whoever likes tennis is purely insane! so tonight is The Last Battle show! im pumped and a little nervous. ive never been to a house show before and thats what it is. and this is my friend Joe's band so its weird. but whatever!
class is over, gotta go!
straightedge.