irenejayne.

our daydream spills from my gold head

my mouth is all tingly and i feel like i have aids.
let me explain.
i just got back from the dentist and the novocaine had my mouth all tingly, and my lips are extremely chapped so i feel like i have aids. [no offense to those of you who do]

so yesterday was pretty eventful.
i skipped gym and went to my friends french class. that was a blast! the Mr. Fowler Contest was a success. i was a great light board operator. and Courtney was amazing at the spotlight. thank god it didnt catch on fire!

when arriving home i had kinda sorta witnessed a drive by. okay maybe not witnessed but i did hear the gun shots. having a drive by in my area is kind of surprising. but my area is getting more worse by the second.
class is almost over and i must pack up.

i have a doctors appointment at 1. that should be exciting! not.

Four Pandas by Andy Warhol

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 * 6:57 AM

the words are coming i feel terrilble...

ugh im sooo confused! i have to buy my dye soon and i dont know what i want.
before i was going to do purple and blue, then just blue. but now im thinking i want to do purple.
heres two purples that i like...

there not that much different but the only other one is dark as hell and i dont want a dark color.
i dont know what to do, got any suggestions?

so tonight is the Mr.Fowler Contest. it should be fun. im doing the main lights and Courtney is doing the spotlight. im nervous that im going to mess up though. this is really important because if i can do this really good then i can most likely do the play. its work time....

i still wonder where you dissappeared to...

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 * 7:18 AM

birthday shit, yo!

so my birthday itself isnt going as i originally planned.
theres no show but its okay. because im still getting my tattoo.
there is a show on the 13th that Court and i are going to. the day before were dying our hair and making Ryan treats. haha. we spoil him.
i just thought of how i want to do my hair better! im going to dye it this color.

so you know its going to be awesome. hopefully ill have pictures up. when it happens obviously.
i have my pants coming. they should be in today or tomorrow. and last night i ordered my shirts. fuchsia polo that i will wear over a lime green shirt. then im getting yellow converse

it will be amazing. i so cant wait! im not sure about the other plans for the rest of the day. whatever me and Courtney decide to do i guess. but the day after. my mom and i are getting a tattoo and then were going to a Japanese restaurant for dinner.

Monday, March 17, 2008 * 8:58 AM

week full of wonder

so i havent blogged in awhile. im very sorry to all my avid readers.
i wasnt in school all last week [except monday]. and i dont have a computer at home.
so what has happened...
nothing really all last week. friday i found out my best friend in the whole flippen universe will possibly move to camillus. so its only about 15 away [depending on where the new house is] but still! i got very emotional. literally. i was crying in my moms job. but at that point it was just a possibility. but i literally just found out from her blog that its a definite. their moving. and im wicked bummed now.

see we had plans for senior year...
senior trip
prom
bowling
and just plain awesomeness

and now im afraid none of that will happen. im more afraid that are friendship will end.
im told not to worry. shes not like that she says.
but its one of those things where i need to see it to believe it.
ive had friends that have moved and swore we would still remain friends. can you guess what happened? you guys are smart, you know what happened. we didnt remain friends.
or we did but the friendship wasnt the same. you know the kind.
inseparable before the big move.
phone calls every day.
then maybe once a week.
then once a month.
and when you do talk, theres always the "we need to hang soon" line.
then when you do "hang" its awkward.

i dot want that to happen with us. she is literally the greatest friend i have ever had. i trust her with all my secrets and dreams. i can always be myself when im with her. and im scared, no petrified that we will no longer be "those two girls that are always together".

i guess ill just have to wait and see.
saturday Court and i hung out at Melinda's house. i was sooo tired. i hadnt went to bed that night so i was beat. she went home about 7 then Melinda and i went to pick up her cousin at work. i ran into Hug-Hes [Keith]. that brightened my dim mood. went home and changed into my new pjs and struggled to stay up so i could color easter eggs with me madre and everyone else.
my attempts failed. haha.

easter sunday was a fun disaster. brunch with the fam that cost 300 and change. Melinda had to call the dentist in to pull her tooth because she was in so much pain. arguments with children about Guitar Hero. Mr. Magoriums Wonder Emporium. i recommend you watch it if you havent.
i think the only really good part was getting my easter basket and falling in P&C.
easter basket had mad candy [of course] a movie [Dan In Real Life, watch it!] and an awesome towel. dont ask. and the whole falling in P&C was soo hilarious. it didnt hurt one bit so dont worry guys. but it resulted in me getting Penny Caroline. this really cute pink stuffed bunny.

monday there was no school and i slept most of the day then hng out with my mom. nothing exciting that day.
i am now at school and its Pajama Day. so im wearing my new pjs and i have Penny Caroline with me. Courtney doesnt know im here. boy will she be surprised. haha.
this blog is way to long right now so im going to do another one. specifically about my birthday..

go up there^^^^^^

* 8:54 AM

look how cuuuuute!

this is Lucas. be jealous of him, he doesnt mind.

Thursday, March 13, 2008 * 8:56 AM

fuck. the. world.

im in a bad mood today. as you can tell from the title.
the only thing that can make me feel better is a show.
it doesnt seem like its going to happen though.

FUCK!

i hate you.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 * 8:40 AM

hands in pants!

American Idol last night was a.w.e.s.o.m.e!
David Archuletta fucked up like 7 times.
Carly Smithson was incredible.
all around it was a damn good show. i dont know if im going to have time to finish this blog because Courtney was just here.

so i have a question for all you blog readers...
why do men always have their hands in their pants???

we just got done watching a movie in health and this kid had his hand like way down in his pants. what are you guys doing? checking to see if your penis is still there? im pretty sure it will ALWAYS be there, no need to check every free chance your hand has.

anyways, this is a sucky week for my besty Courtney. her nephew has to go to Boston to have surgery. he's not even one yet. and hes going to miss his birthday. well not actually miss it, because his birthday will be the same wherever he goes. but he wont be with his whole family for it. it sucks majorly.

Court you know i dont really believe in god or anything so im not going to say my "prayers" go out to him. but you know what i mean...
everything will be just fine buddy :o)

on a happier note, im getting 100 times better at Guitar Hero. its like im a drug addict and that fucking game is my drug. thats how addicted to it i am.
lunch is ova! this sucks!
Rossi is trying to kick me out. hes such an ass. but i love him.
not like that! i mean he is my teacher but hes a cool dude and an awesome friend. so there!

Govener Eliot Spitzer resigned! hahahah!

Monday, March 10, 2008 * 6:44 AM

this weekend has been...

hectic as hell! friday and saturday were uneventful. so i guess the whole weekend hasnt been hectic. saturday i did go to the mall though with Heather and Jayden. found out Hot Topic is going to be hiring soon, so i asked the one girl Erica to put in a good word for me. so hopefully i can get that job...
and i found out that this guy Caleb Micah works in the apple store. it was so weird to see him. well not weird but unexpected.
so sunday was a fun day [sarcasem]
it was the extreme opposite of fun, untill the very end of the day.
my friend Melinda's kinda sorta relative died in a fire. it was crazy.
i felt so bad but then again i didnt. i felt more bad for my mom because she got stuck working for Debbie [Melinda's mom]

later that night though when my mom and i went back to Melinda's house i went upstairs to play Richard's [Melinda's boyfriend] Guitar Hero.
now ive never been a fan of Guitar Hero. mainly because ive never played it because ive never seen the purpose of it.
but holy crow! its so fun!
i was really bad at first, and Richard kept laughing at me. but after a few songs i got the hang of it. i am now obsessed.

so today after school i have a student council meeting thingy. i dont really want to go but i have to. Courtney has to finish a lab. then were going to Walmart so i can get a PSP game. sounds fun right! not really...
the people in my school annoy the hell out of me! they all think their hot shit when really their not.

wow, theres deffinitly going to be more added later because im kinda sorta being kicked off of the computer right now.
oh and does anyone have an idea for my Guitar Hero band name?
im extremely unawesome at the moment and i cant think of a good one....
if you have any ideas just leave me a comment.

hahaha i love making bitches mad! its the funniest thing ever. now this chick is going to go around school and talk mad shit about me and say she wants to fight me.
WHATEVER!
i know her type. and i used to be afraid of those types.
you know the type that will fight for the fun of it. [ive never been in a fight before]
but at this point i dont care. she always says that people "better respect" her but im sorry, im a strong beliver in 'you have to give respect to get it'
and she never gives respect so im sorry shes NOT going to get mine.
this is what happened.
her and this other bitch wanted to go on the computer. my intention was to just stay on the computer untill the end of the class [i know im mean]
then they came up and sat behind me trying to make me get off faster.
words were said, shes talking shit. its funny!
class is over though so goodbye!

Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure love to stare
Drama doesn't follow me it rides on my back
I may be ugly but they sure ,they sure, love to stare
-There's A Class For This by Cute Is What We Aim For

[im in love with that song and that lyric]

Friday, March 7, 2008 * 6:36 AM

315 in Ruins cancelled?

im bummed. wicked bummed.
my perfect birthday plans have crumbled with the news.
the 315 in Ruins Fest is cancelled....
Honor Bright would have been playing that day.
it would have been incredible!
well one thing is still going good for me on my birthday.
my Honor Bright tattoo! that is going to be soo much fun!
i guess Honor Bright is playing on the 13th of April [i found out from Ryan], but hes not sure where. hopefully its a syracuse show and i can go to that one. if so its better then no show right?

this just isnt my day i guess. last night was the American Idol results for the top 12. im sad. my favorite guy got eliminated!

Danny Noriega

i love this kid! hes so cute and feirce at the same time. i love his attitude and his voice. hes kinda sorta amazing!

well class is about over, its taken me forever to find that picture. if i can ill write more later...

Thursday, March 6, 2008 * 6:57 AM

Christian Siriano

you see that man above? see how feirce he is?
he's so feirce he won Project Runway Season 4.
you really dont know how excited i am!
i've been rooting for Christian since the very beginning.
at 21 hes the youngest Project Runway winner yet.
hopefully one day i can meet him, that would be fabulous!

i <3 Christian Siriano

okay so im in science right now and were doing this project about drugs. i dont get it. i wasnt paying attention when he told us about it. im on meebo and talking to Courtney, this class is fun so far. later after school Courtney is probably coming over and were going to make braid head wraps. i dont know if thats the tech term but thats what im calling them. there cute. and when i first introduced the concept to my dear buddy Court she thought it was stupid. now she wants to make one. hahahaha.
i have to end this. i have work to do.

"She's just a little girl, she knows nothing of this little game welike to play"
-Sugar Skulls by Envy On The Coast

Tuesday, March 4, 2008 * 9:04 AM

donating blood

oh. my. god.
i hate red headed old ass lady's.
i want everyone to know that.
except my mom of course.

so i just went to donate blood at school and they have these bed things that you lay on. well im sitting here worried that they wont hold my weight, so i was going to ask about them.

FUCK LUNCH IS OVER!
ill finish this after!

okay so now its after school time, and im in the library.
okay so back to my donating blood story. this fucking lady with to much red lipstick on her teeth and purple eyebrows came over and started talking about how she doesnt want to embaress me and shit. but then she said something like "we can just tell people its because of a tattoo or peircing if you would like."
woah. i. fucking. flipped.
everybody knows me in my school. and everybody knows that im overweight. i mean how could you NOT notice. and if i got a new tattoo, everybody would fucking know. so i basically went off on the bitch and walked out.

then my day got better because im doing archery in gym and i got to take my anger out via the arrow hitting the target. now im in the library listening to Panic! At The Disco on purevolume.com. my life is grand, sometimes.

well i think i have to go. my mom is probably sitting outside waiting for me.
Team Goldie makes me smile...

Monday, March 3, 2008 * 5:55 AM

untitled

what. the. fuck.
people annoy me.
big time.
its like life is going so great then,
BAM!
its not so great anymore.

this weekend was extremely bipolar.
friday was fun, i dont remember all of it because i was extremely sleep deprived. but courtney came over and we hung out for a bit. i was talking british the whole time.
saturday seemed like it was going to be a blast but some fucking magical creature bailed on us.
fuck you.
then it seemed he lied.
fuck you again.
and he hurt my buddy.
i hope you die!!
but it turned out to be fun without him. we went and saw Penelope at the movies. and before that we went to Hot Topic so i could hand in my application. Holding Matthew was there, he made my day better.
sunday was the worst. arguements all day long. nothing to do. a fucking crack addicted baby annoying the shit out of me. it was a nightmare to say the least.

now its monday. and im in science. its a half day but i have to stay after to do a LPP test thing for college. lets not get on the college thing again. i found out im going to start babysitting for my brother in april. doest sound much fun, but he has cable and a computer, and its more money in my pocket. which is a good thing because i have my tattoo coming up and i need to get the rest of the money. well i have to go, we have to do a worksheet. even though theres only 5 kids here today.

An injured friend is the bitterest of foes-Thomas Jefferson