be a bearcat not a bully!
its been a rollercoaster lately.so many ups and downs, but i feel the downs come more often.
my phone is off again. which isnt even my biggest problem. i hate to see my mom sad. and shes sad all the time. appartenly she doesnt want a christmas. she feels bad that she cant buy melinda and her family anything.
i really wish people would learn that christmas isnt about the presents. as corny and old fashioned as it sounds, it really is about family and spending time with the ones you love.
i feel bad myself that they've bought us so much and we dont have anything for them. but they genuinly do not care. they get us stuff because they love us.
ive been worring that i wont have something for my mom though. but ive come up with a pretty sweet idea.
my mom loves my writing. i have no idea why because in my opinion i have so much to learn. but i figure ill write her a really nice poem and then put it in a nice frame. its simple but from the heart ya know. and michelle can draw really really good so im going to have her draw some yellow roses around it which are my moms favorite flower.
im excited to see how itll turn out.
ive been doing alot of community service. im in love with it. i love feeling that ive helped someone. a complete stranger and there family. its an amazing feeling. yesterday a young kid came to register to get a food basket and a present for his daughter. he was so happy that he would have food for her on christmas and at least one present for her. he lost his job and times are tough these days. his parting words were "god bless and thank you". it just touched me.
hopefully i can do alot more with the salvation army. its a good organization. and the people that work there are great.
so its offical. im the street team leader for fazeshift. i love those boys. and there music. ive been talking to josh and we got some good ideas flowing. courtneys going to work on the st layout over christmas break so hopefully we can get it up and running right after christmas! how sweet would that be!?
so on febuary 18th im traveling to albany to meet, the one and only KAT VON D! i fucking love her so much! her book comes out in january and she'll be doing her book tour after that. shes coming to albany and im going! i am so pumped. its my dream to meet her.
im getting her last name tattooed on the inside of my lip!
itll be amazing! and yes i know im insane but she has that sort of impact on me that i feel its a dedication to her if i get it. hopefully in january i can get it!
okay i gotta bounce yo!!
beyonces new song "if i were a boy" has been stuck in my head all day!
straightedge.