"only irene and i can give out manafaceanitis! noone else!"
this is my 100th post.hurray for mee!!
so i just read robs post about him being straightdege. although my story isnt as.. tragic as his, i thought id share mine as well.
mines also not as long! :P
i grew up with just my mom around, my dads a dirtbag.
and basically along with rob i was sheltered as a kid. sure i knew what drinking was. my mom did it like twice a year. but i never really knew what drugs were.
i also went to catholic school. from 3rd to 7th grade. i failed 7th at ludden so i switched to frazer. there i learned what drugs were and how "cool" it was if you did them. i also figured out if you drank or smoked pot you were known as the cool kid. mind you this is in 7th grade.
i also figured out that if you wanted to survive in a public school you act like the kids around you. and in my case it was ghetto trouble-makers. so i acted tough and got in trouble and i always got praise for it.
once i got the praise from my classmates for my attitude i had to up the bar to something bigger.
drinking and smoking.
i look back on it now and i cant believe how stupid i was.
i started drinking. having friends sneak over beers and whatnot when they came over to hang out. sneaking my moms liquor. to the point where i would only think about drinking. it was pathetic.
i tried a few ciggarettes. they were disgusting.
and i tried weed once.
apparently i cant inhale right. yes i know its just like breathing but when you have a mouth full of smoke its semi-difficult.
so from my unsuccesful attempts at smoking/drugs i gave up on that and focused on the drinking.
then i met courtney.
courts been straightedge all her life. obviously when she was younger she didnt know it :P
she basically introduced me into this whole other lifestyle. shows, sxe, new music/syle, etc. i fell in love with it all. once i learned what straightedge was, i thought i was for babies. but after hanging out with courtney and all these new people i learned that it was a life choice and how important it can be.
and after taking a look at my family history i noticed that alcoholics and drug addicts were more popular than virgins in a brothel. i decided i didnt want to risk that happening to me.
so i became straightedge.
the last drink i ever had was a sip of champagne at my cousins wedding almost two years ago. its been hard at times. when people offer me a drink and i decline. there curious as to why. i explain and they dont get it. some do though and when they do its awesome.
i dont plan on changing my edge-ness. itll probably evolve into more at some point. but for right now its the basic
"no drugs, no drinks, no casual sex"!
and like rob said..
go edge!
straightedge.