so im pregnant.. congrats to me!
not really! buttt in my dream i was!this is what happened..
basically i was pregnant.
before i took a test i just knew i was.
well i went to the store to buy a pregnancy test. i was going to steal it but it was right next to the counter.
appartenly i didnt want my mom to know what i got myself into.
so i picked up a test and the cashier asked me if i wanted a price check.
i said okay and she stabs me with the test.
not a im going to kill you stab, just a little poke.
then she plugs it into the register and announces "your going to have a boy"
haha. weird i know.
so then i just buy another test and go home.
sure enough im pregnant.
then a bunch of stuff happens that i cant even remember.
what i do remember is having a conversation with ryan.
i told you to read this ry, heres why..
basically ryan and i were having a conversation on aim.
just regular talk.
then i asked him what he would think if i was pregnant.
he said it would pretty cool. he loves babies!
he then asked why..
"because im pregnant" was my reply.
"can i be the uncle ryan!?" was his.
and that was it..
weird right?
i think it all stems from this dreamcatcher my mom got me from Fasttrac. true its taking away all the bad dreams but in its place its giving me fucked up baby ones. that was like the 984987 dream about babies ive had.
this annoying girl sarah told me that that im probably going to get pregnant..
shes a twit. i cant stand her.
so im almost done with courtneys present! i dont think ill have it ready by tomorrow though. ill probably stay up to finish it though.
not having school would be a dream because then i would have more time to finish it.
so im really torn between what show i want to go to.
i havent seen honor bright in awhile and i miss them!
but then again i havent seen merrimac in close to a year! its been ages!
my gut is telling me to go to see merrimac.
i think i will.
so im almost done with courtneys present. im excited to see what she thinks of it.
i really hope she likes it. hopefully i can finish tonight!
im excited to see what she got me. apparently its like 234597349587 things.
im going shopping for brandons present on friday before the show.
and i already got francescas.
she'll love it.
ive discoverd the magic of the smashing pumpkins.
so has allesandra.
mine and ally's song
"To Sheila"
The Smashing Pumpkins
Twilight fades
Through blistered avalon
The sky's cruel torch
On aching autobahn
Into the uncertain divine
We scream into the last divide
You make me real
You make me real
Strong as i feel
You make me real
Sheila rides on crashing nightingale
Intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
With blushing brilliance alive
Because it's time to arrive
You make me real
You make me real
Strong as i feel
You make me real
Lately I just can't seem to believe
Discard my friends to change the scenery
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
But now it's just a matter of grace
A summer storm graces all of me
Highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
And take you home into the night
You make me real
Lately I just can't seem to believe
You make me real
Discard my friends to change the scenery
Strong as i feel
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
You make me real
But now it's just a matter of grace
straightedge.