one word to describe my life:

incredible.

i have the most amazing friends.
and now there all back in my life.
court and i have reconnected again. sure its not the same but its better than nothing.

so my birthday weekend.. pretty flippen sweet!
it started off with friday.. sarah and i went to go get our nails done.
lets just say a pyscho chinese cracked out man made my nails look like fireee!
after that we did some running around just to go home empty handed and not really in the mood to make bracelets for the guys.
but we made them anyways.
so saturday was possible the best day everrr!
sure my tattoo appointment started a few hours late. john was real sorry about it and i didnt care once he started touching me!
literally i was in pure heaven.. everyone in that room was jealous of meee!
haha!
has anyone else but me noticed that i have a pattern of tattoo artists.. their all flippen hottt!
anywho.. after that we picked up brandon and dropped off dakota [ill get to that later], then went to the show.
from the second we got there it was pure fun!
the lod guys loved the tattoo. and they better have! it took me almost an hour to find the font!
my apple looks amazing by the wayyy!
it hurt like hell but i guess its true what they say, beauty is pain.
once we went inside to see everyone, we went back outside to get food.
i had a falafel from the pita pit. most amazing thing ever!
court arrived. it was good to see her.
it definitly was weird seeing her after so long but it was good none the less.
we did plan to talk.. didnt happen. i admit i was having way to much fun.
come on now.. who wouldnt with a hot canadian grinding on you, seeing the brother you never wanted but love anyways, having songs dedicated to you [one of my fav parts of the night], meeting new drunk friends named ed looking for his clit, and so much more.
i got free shirts which i felt bad for but oh well.
i need to get brians number! next time i see them its my mission.
at the end of the night i was exhausted. hungry. and smiling.
sunday was my birthday and my actual party.
melinda and my mom finally got to throw the penis party they've always wanted to throw me.
it was pretty fun. all of my friends were there.
and i got a fish! his name is stephan. hes pink and red.
later that night after bringing everyone home josh stopped by "because he wanted to see me on my birthday"
it was a short visit but funn anyways.
he wouldnt have a peice of cake because it creeped him out and he swears jay z is the best rapper ever.
i doubt that!
before leaving he promised to let me know what was going on tuesday [we had plans to hang out].

and before i get to that.. let me talk about my cousin.
really quite annoying. she basically came over for my birthday weekend but bitched the whole time that she was bored.
she was on the phone basicaly the whole weekend.. which is cool. i mean im on my phone alot to. but like it was excessive.
and saturday her plans of going to the show with us changed cause its not really "her scene". so we dropped her out at her friends instead.
at that point i could really care less. she was annoying all of us and obviously would have been the debbie downer of the night.
oh well. she missed out on one amazing night.
instead she cleaned. and drank.
fucking alcoholic.
she goes to these meetings for kids with alcoholic parents and such yet every weekend she makes sure to get plastered and make out with some random friend.
whatever. i have amazing people in my life and i dont really need people like that.
im over it.

okay so anyways.. about today with josh. he picked me up at 12 and we went to panera bread company on erie. on the way there we were jamming to punk goes pop vol 2. its amazing and josh is a major goofball!
when we got there i made him order for me cause ive never been there.
i got chedder and broccali soup. its possibly the best soup everrrr.
we had a great time. i was a little bummed though.
[i hope he doesnt know about this blog!]
i like josh. hes a really sweet guy. one of the rare ones. hes such a genuine person that you cant help but fall for him. and i have a little.
but i found out hes sorta talking to someone. no doubt shes probably gorgeous.
it sorta broke my heart a little :P
oh well. its nice to be friends with him.
i can honestly say that he's one of the most amazing people ive ever met and im really really really glad we became friends. and i can see this friendship going a long way.
our hangout was intended to talk about religion. him and the fs boys are the most religious people i know. and im clearly not.
i want to believe in something.. i just dont.
we didnt even talk about it until he was bringing me home. he gave me this book that he wants me to read. hes going to read it again to.
your supposed to read a chapter a day and we'll talk about each chapter.
its our own little bookclub.
Carver & Lola's Bookclub!
you can not know what carver stands for.. its a secrettttt!
after josh dropped me off my mom took me to get my new phone.
i feel cool now. haha.
i got the messenger in navy. it gorgeous and i love it.
after she got out of work at 4 she took me to angry banana to get my third lip peircing.
it looks cute.
and different.
LIKE MEEE!
at 7 we all went to bingo.
none of us one.
as usual.
now im about to upload pictures on my myspace.
im bouncinnnn!




ps-i guess sarah isnt a raging lesbian waiting to burst out of the closet now that the melvinator is in townnnn!

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youarethereasonsmilesexistatall :)

apparently i have hooker nails.
apparently sarah is a raging lesbian waiting to charge out of the closet.
apparently we all make really good desert.
and apparently steven and walter are sex maniacs who cant keep it to themselves.

i love my friends.
the "dinner" party was incredible.
most fun ive had in awhile. there was a minor bump of anger but it smoothed over.
walter was spiderman every time he had to pee. i think he only went pee because of it!
there were board games and really good deserts and laughing!
oh god. i dont think there was ever a moment that we didnt laugh. even while arguing.
and playing scatergories didnt help the laughing thing.
it made it worse!
it definitly has to happen again soon.
the next time we all hang out is the 18th.
im soooooo excited for that day!
so is everyone else.
what are you doing the 18th?

so right now as i type this im having a text conversation with john paul about religion. a very confusing topic.
ive never had religious friends and having them is getting me thinking.
so im talking to them and doing my own research and just thinking maybe i should believe in something.
talking to john paul about it helps alot. hes so passionate about his faith.
speaking of john paul! im almost done with this scarf.
if you have no idea what im talking about.. ches and i are making the guys scarves.
im making josh and john pauls. and ches is making joey and alec's. im getting the yarn to finish john pauls tonight and im also getting joshs.
hopefully they'll both be done by the 18th.
i have faith that they will though :)

ive been thinking alot about what you blogged about.
about the whole sticking by a friend thing.
and i feel bad.
and ive felt this way for awhile.
i miss your friendship. and i miss talking to you.
and im sorry your going through this all "alone".
that bolded question up there is directed to you btw.

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Sunday, March 29, 2009 * 7:22 PM

insert witty title here

i havent blogged in a bit.
shits been poppin!
the show on the 21st was amazing! i had sososo much fun.
even though i got hated on by everyone!
and i mean it.. hussain, tom, mike, and johnny were mad that i wasnt at there cd release show.
BUT IT WASNT MY FAULT!!!
it was sarahs.. i told them this. they laughed.
but everyone was being really mean to me. but they love me still. i made sure.
i finally got to see lights out dancing! and let me tell you.. they didnt disappoint.
oh and something i just learned.. in honor brights first tour video theres a section where tom and mike from lights out dancing are yelling about blue penis's..
i know weird.
well the poster that mike signs is mine. and yes he did sign right below the ape nuts. it says "mike haase loves you so effing much! so eff off!"
its pretty amazing.
later during the show ches and i got talking to mike from LOD. we got his number and ive talked to him since.
he's a wicked cool guy.
after the show was over we went and picked up steven and walter.
got in a fight with my mom and went to rojis. only to get the stuff to go and went to my house to hang.
LOD is playing again on april 18th at funk n waffles. its at 3 and its free!
hey that rhymed!
im wicked excited for that day. listen to whats going onnnnnnnn!

1pm-TATTOO!
what am i getting now? a lyric by LOD "you are the reasons smiles exist at all"
it goes with my idea for my chest piece.
and them im getting a red apple on my left thumb.
sarahs getting that for me for my birthday. i kinda sorta love her now for it.
oh and im going to john! i missed him.

3pm-SHOW!
lights out dancing! honor bright! fazeshift! the brilliant light! and some other non important band!
me, sarah, cheska, allyson, maybe dakota and maybe brandon are going to the show.
afterwards were picking up steven and walter.
which leads us to..

?pm-TEA!
were all going to unique tea house!

it'll be the pimpenest day everrr!
im pretty stoked!

so i dont have my results back yet. itll probably be a few more weeks. but i want to know now. its sorta killing me.
i know ill have to retake the math.. what else im not sure.
tina had her baby. shes adorable. her name is tessa mae. you can see her beautiful face on my myspace..
www.myspace.com/irene88
dont stalk me.

well were going to walmart. this hasnt been the blog i thought about typing but whatever. ill blog again soon..











and im sorry to hear that. i hope everything goes okay :/

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Friday, March 20, 2009 * 10:57 PM

green people are crazy

why do you think i hate you?
i dont. i hope you know that.
and i miss you. i hope you realize that.
there really wont ever be anyone like you courtney.
yes, i want you to grow up and realize what a great person you can be if you open up.
you have so much potential.
theres days when i really want to call you and just talk about everything
but then theres days when i cant stand you..
but ill never hate you.
i save my hate for people like stacy :)


so ive had a sort of hectic week. i took my ged test tuesday and wednesday.
i was so upset tuesday. when the guy called time for the first section of the math i was only on question 16 out of 25. i started crying.
i know pathetic.
i just want this shit to be over and done with.
and ill most likely have to retake the math. i hope i dont have to retake anything else though.
wednesday went great. it was the reading and writing part and thats my strength.
now i just have to wait a few weeks to find out if i passed or not.

monday night i was sorta sleeping when reggie came to the house to get meat.
yeah i know.. weird.
well i couldnt really get back to sleep after that. my mom called to tell me that my food was done and she asked why danielle and everyone was sitting outside of the house.
like i would know!?
well i went outside and i was talking to them for a minute when all of a sudden the loudest most painful yelp filled the air.
a car had turned the corner and hit a puppy that came out of nowhere.
i turned around and saw her basically fly through the air. when she landed she was twitching uncontrollably. i ran down to my mom who informed debbie was calling 911. she told me to go get a blanket.
i ran back to the house and grabbed the first blanket i put my hands on.. it turned out to be the blanket melinda had made for me.
it was the saddest thing ive ever seen. the puppy was bleeding from her mouth and you could tell she was obviously in pain. the cops came and were complete assholes. it pretty much pissed everyone off.
but some lady that had stopped brought her to the animal emergancy hospital.
apparently the owners came and claimed the dog.
we still dont know if shes alive or dead.
ches and come down and didnt really know where i was. she saw my slippers which i had ran out of [its semi hard to run in slippers]. when i was walking across the street she came down and i immediatly started crying.
let me tell you.. ive never had a friend like francesca.
maybe its in her nature or maybe its because ive been there so many times for her. but she wrapped me in her arms and let me just cry on her shoulder.
it was so comforting yet so weird. again, ive never had a friend that let me cry on there shoulder.
so frankie casssssss i love you!

i know this blog is jumping around everywhere.. but i havent blogged in awhile.
sunday night weston, alicia, and i went out on a date. shes back on break from college and i missed her. we went to unique tea house because ive been dying to go.
it wasnt rojis so i wont ever love it the same.. but it is a nice place to switch to every now and then. after that we went to insomnia cookies! i was so excited!!
i saw them on Unwrapped and i just recently found out they have one in syracuse.
i basically flipppppped! and the cookies were insandeee!
there hot when still chewy!
oh gosh i want one nowwwww!

tomorrow is the lights out dancing showww! im so flippen excited! its going to be me, sarah, ches, and brandon at the show. and then after were picking steven and walter to go to unique tea house.
i am beyond excited for the show! and ill be up front for all the bands cause its a killer line up.
oh and im dying my hair tonight. i think im going to do a blue black. way way different for me. but i cant do orange until i get a job.
your probably thinking.. blue black is different for you when you do pink, orange, and blueee!?
well ive never done black and im wicked scared ill never be able to reverse it.
oh well. im all about different!

really quickly before i end this blog.
i watched this documentary on HBO called Death On A Factory Farm.
this private investigator went on a hog farm in ohio under accusations of animal abuse. the footage he got was so sick.
i dont understand how anyone could be that cruel.
and in the end the people that abused these poor pigs didnt get shit.
watching it has just made my decision of being vegetarian stronger.
i wont go back to meat for the sole perpose of what those animals had to go through to get on my plate.

well lovies, i have to go. im going to walmart to get hair dye and a white tee for tomorrow!

GREEN PEOPLE ARE CRAZY!!!

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Friday, March 13, 2009 * 9:44 PM

my icecream fell on the sidewalk

not really.
i dont have icecream.
and im not on a sidewalk.
thats cheskas imagination for ya!

ive been vegetarian for 10 days. im pretty excited about that.
and ive been on my diet pills for 4 days.
ive only worked out once but thats not by choice.
im ready for this change.. i want it to happen now.

not really much to blog about.
i had a date with weston. we went to chinese.
not the original plan.
but it was so much fun!
i have a date with steven and walter tomorrow night.
sarah might join.
parades tomorrow.
pretty stoked.
ged test next tuesday and wednesday.
pretty nervous.
show next saturday.
pretty fucking excited about that!

ive pretty much given up on tom.
oh well.
i think ill stick to vagina from now on!
oh waittttt.. i have a semi semi black boyfriend..
whos gay and lives 2 hours away..
and ive never met him!
i steal him from weston all the timeee!
weston, im sorry nate doesnt like your dirty muff.
and im sorry my penis is huge compared to yours :)

ps-i got it from meebo.
weird i know.
//end blog

posted by irenejayne at 9:44 PM 0 Comments

Monday, March 9, 2009 * 9:49 AM

it takes the average person 7 minutes to fall asleep

why does it seem to be everyone else's responsibility to say hi to you?
didnt you and steven have a conversation about this awhile ago.. how he wouldnt talk to you unless you said hi first.
you should apply that to other people.
everyone is willing to be your friend still, you just dont talk to them.
ches told me that you sat at there lunch table one day and didnt say a word to them.. but you texted shawn the whole time.
it doesnt make sense.
steven just told me that he said hi to you today and you didnt respond.
your digging this grave yourself courtney.

on to happier topics! the show on friday was amazinggg!
so ive been to funk n waffles before, we all have.. except sarah.
but who actually pays attention on how to get there!
nobody.. except brandon.
we got there but it took forever.. we went in circles.
but then we couldnt find parking. it was insane.
once we got there we just hung around for a bit. as soon as josh saw me he came up and sat with us and hung out for a few. same with joey.
he's a funny little dude. he was complaining about not getting the food half off. i guess the bands get waffles and shit half price.
makes me want to start a band!
but they werent doing it that night. he was sorta begging me to go up and complain.
i guess he was joking :P
i then proceded to beg him to play mily cyrus.. they had a different song they wanted to do.
turns out the song was Love Story by Taylor Swift!
those guys are silly!
after they played that i and about 2 other people started a miley chant! josh told me that this wasnt disney.
they wound up playing it.. and i loved every second of it.
after the show i got one of josh's drumsticks that he broke. i dont understand how it broke like it did.
and i got john pauls pick.. im now on a hunt to find out the perfect way to put a hole in it. so i can put it on my necklace!
the dangerous summer was incred. i bought there ep, poster, and sticker!
and i had enough for a colatta at dunkin donuts!
after the show we drove around for a bit.. went to mcdonalds and learned about fights in gay bars.
then we took everyone home.
later though christina and ryan were walking home from the mall. they stopped by to hang for a few. it was good to see chrissy. but in the same aspect it was beyond weird. who knows if we'll hang in the future.



I can't stop thinking about the words
that you once said, like I better stop my breathing before I stop believing.
I've been tearing out my throat with dangerous words.
Selling hooks with all this screaming,
you'd think I'd start to get it, but I don't...
They're God damn right. You've still got your voice, so don't just let this die.

posted by irenejayne at 9:49 AM 0 Comments