i have just had one of the worst days everr

so i wanted to talk about my weekend..
friday was my dinner party and homecoming. i didnt go to school which pissed me off. it fucked up my record. steven won homecoming king. i am so proud of him. he never came to the dinner party because he had the dance and such. let me talk about that for a minute. turns out steven was mad at me because none of his friends went to the dance and supported him. and i know hes going to read this at some point but i dont really care. this is my blog so im going to say what i feel.

when i read his message saying "yeah actually" to my question of him being mad at me..i just lost it. i never would have thought steven would be mad at me. ever. and it was weird. i really didnt know what to think. all i needed to know was why. turns out he was disappointed that none of his friends went to support him on his special day. and trust me i would have been there. it was killing me that i wasnt even in school to see his expression when his name was announced. i will never let myself forget that. while talking to ches about it i started crying. lame right? needless to say, everything is patched up between us. about that at least.
you see, francesca and i planned this little "party" for steven and walter because walter won homecoming prince for the junior class and apparently he felt the same as steven. so we made this corny sign on saturday and ches made necklaces for them and we were going to hang out today after school. only they didnt know that. steven thinks that him and i were going to go to the movies. and walter thinks that he has to help ches' mom. well steven had to cancel which pissed me off today. it just put me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. he needed to stay after and help with the play which is cool. but he should have told me when i asked him what he was doing on monday.
i know what we were planning on doing is extremely corny but it would have been fun.

anyways, let me get on to some happier topics. the dinner party was fun. i got to actually hang out with carolynn. she is such an amazing person. weston tried break dancing. it was pretty funny. i have a bunch of pictures that will be up soon. hopefully. we hate and talked and laughed and at the end of the night went to rojis. yes i know im obsessed with that place. whatever! its delicious and i love it there. by the end of the night weston went home with my pink converse. and ellie says "it hurts to be hurt by hurt :'["
saturday was sort of boring. we went to my grandparents house for lunch and hung out there a bit. then once we got home debbie took me to scarab to see ricky and get a ticket for ellie. ill get to that in a few..
sunday i hung out with my mom all morning. we drove to brewerton to look for a bakery, ended up at a pet store where we bought a bird! its a parakeet. and a tinyy one at that. i named him King Steven because he's gorgeous and tiny just like the human steven. and then later went to kmart and shopped where i got this amazing beatles poster. im hanging it up today.


i am so excited for halloween..
hanging out with my best friends while rocking out to some of the most amazing tunes everr!
then rojis after that.. then a slumber party!
how exciting :D
that whole weekend will be pretty intense. i am the avalance and the doppler effect on friday. honor bright and fazeshift on saturday. and my tattoo on sunday. ill get more into that tomorrow. i dont have the time noww...













and were running out of time baby
so lets hold hands
and run across the milky way
until were breathless and careless

posted by irenejayne at 9:36 AM 0 Comments

that just made me giggle

Its Thursday and I want to sleep.
Sleep for an eternity.. wake up and continue with where my life left off.

Tuesday was splendid. I love having one on one with Weston.
I wont get into major detail but ill give you some highlights. First he kidnapped me. We went to Billy Fucillos so he could get touch up paint. We then followed a silver car because we couldnt decipher whether or not the driver was an attractive man or woman. Turns out it was an unattractive man. We then went to Roji’s where we had an amazing time. He got the girls name wrong and I swear he was going to kill himself because of it. It was extremely cute. I had peach black milk tea and Weston had sen cha [sp?]. Mine was uber delicious. Its possibly my favorite on the menu so far. Westons was good too. im more a fan of the flavored tea but it was pretty good. And before we left I got a honey dew bubble tea. That was excellent! So after we left we somehow made it to little italy and because Weston didn’t want to hit a van we turned onto butternut where we decided to go see steven. That was a little adventure in itself. Basically I made stevens day. He admitted it to me and everything! After we left rite aid we went to the shop to get the money from my mom to go get crickets. And after that…. We just hung out at the shop! I sort of hate Weston now because he gets special treatment from everyone. Fuck that! Haha.
I was sad when he left. We talked about his dead baby collection which brightened me up quite a bit.
So that was my Tuesday with Weston. I obviously didn’t get into detail or else you would know about the toast and smelling like small assholes. Haha I just left you hanginggggg!

Wednesday was a half day. It was so pointless. We went from classroom to classroom learning about college and blah blah blah blah blah! I already know the stuff because I talked to somebody about it. The only thing I did find interesting was having to pay extra for Weston to go to prom with me. Oh well.. he said hes going to pay anyways. After school ended I hung outside with steven and millie and demaris for about 10 minutes. I called Weston and talked to caroline. I miss her. Shes coming to the dinner party now! And ellie is to now! Yay! More people! I am so excited for tomorrow. Anyways, after leaving school Courtney, ches, and I went back to my house. Courtney became weird and I wont get into it because we already talked about it. Ches and I drew my tattoos and my prom dress.
im excited about my dress. it looks pretty spiffy so far.
today has sucked. basically.
i found out our power was shut off this morning. i guess a truck hit a pole or something. i was going to stay home and sleep. thank god i didnt. i got a camera from MLAB today and i have a new option for college.
im really feeling Cazenovia. the woman that came to talk to us was pretty sweet. it was only steven and i that met her. Schnyder saw me in the library and said that i should go and i did. im really excited. its a small school. and whats cool is that they basically accept anybody because even if you have a low gpa they have a program that will help you. im excited. steven and i might be going to the same college.
i basically didnt go to any classes today. i hung out with ellie in the lunch room all day really. it was fun.

now im sitting in the library with brian and ali. afternoon school is in like 20 minutes.
leave love for me darlings!

posted by irenejayne at 7:39 AM 0 Comments

Tuesday, October 14, 2008 * 9:23 AM

i got in a fight with an elf..

and he won!
literally it looks like i got in a fight with an elf. i have two bruises on my arm that resemble small footprints.

david is really fucking annoying me right now. he will not leave. i just might kill him.
there are like a million people i want to kill today. namely everyone in my first block. we've started a new play called A Streetcar Named Desire and the author Tennessee Williams is gay. or was. well this ignorant nigger chick started saying shit like "ew he was gay. fucking faggot. how could anyone be gay?" so jasmine said something to her but she continued so then i asked her how she could be straight? she started laughing and i was dead serious..
you want to know how someone could be gay..
well how could you be straight?
i hate ignorant people. gay/lesbian/bi/trans/and everything else are people too. just because they like something different or dont like the same as you doesnt mean they have a deadly plauge.
and thennn.. while people were reading there were more ignorant people talking and being rude. so i said something and then the natural reaction is to say something about my weight. real fucking original people.
UGHHHHH! anyways..
im an aunt again!
Yanelise Alcala was born on Octobber 11th 2008 at 3:02am.
shes 19in and 6lbs and tinyyy! but shes gorgeous and im in love with her.

so today so far has been uber annoying. everything has been bugging the shit out of me. the whole first block thing. and then we had two fire drills in a row. way annoying because its way to hot out to be going in and out of school. andrew said that some kid threatened the school with a bomb. whatev.

today after i leave school. im going home to get ready to go to roji's with weston. im very excited because i havent been to rojis in forever. im ordering a mache latte. i most likely spelled it wrong but weston said its like the orgasem of a hot greek man! how delicious! but im also getting a bubble tea for home. this is going to be good because i feel that weston and i need to have a talk. nothing serious. just life mostly.
friday is our second dinner party. theres a few more people and were actually making food. im just sick of every time we hang out theres pizza. sooooo were eating regular food this time.
walter wants it to be a sleepover. i dont think steven would sleepover. or brandon. but the others im pretty sure of.
if so it'll be a grand time.

courtney did my ipod over again. im extremely happy because i have some damn good artists on there now.
im sort of in love with her for it now..









And you, you're not doing too well.
All the blogs are about you, girl.
They caught you in the park after dark
giving head to a statue, girl.
Oh, cruel!

posted by irenejayne at 9:23 AM 0 Comments

Friday, October 10, 2008 * 9:21 AM

brandon is a tunaboat :D

im finding great music lately..
heres a few new ones for ya listening pleasure

stereo skyline!
The Starting Line

okay thats it right now. i really dont have time to look.
this blog is going to be short but i want to talk about a few things..
yesterday my mom and i got in a fight. i called her a cunt and she told me she wanted to slit my throat. haha. i was laughing on the inside.
i got my lip rings and 2 gauge tapers. my right ear is bleeding a little bit. it hurts too :'[
yesterday was a fucked up day all around. it was a good morning/afternoon. but then after school the whole fight with my mom/losing my spike for my lip ring..
but then it got good because jay came in the shop. the next tattoo party is november 2nd. im totally going and im getting my LOVE IS LOVE tattoo. so fucking pumped.

today for fourth block im going to the johnson center with courtney to get a manicure.. by her. she said im going to critizise her. but im really not. shes most likely going to do a good job.
im excited though because i get to get out of school for a little bit.
i have nothing really planned for today. which sucks but whatever. maybe i can clean my room...
maybe not.












So grab this statement
And read between the lines
I'm walking on an edge
That's how I stay alive
I need a fix now
The pills I have to take
It helps me live a lie
and blinds all my mistakes

posted by irenejayne at 9:21 AM 0 Comments

Thursday, October 9, 2008 * 9:37 AM

"why is everyone focusing on me!?"

before i forget.. i found these amazing bands on purevolume today. and ive said this a million times. but i can not wait to get internet so i can download music because i would rock the shit out of all these bands..

Lights Out Dancing
I Set My Friends On Fire
Kill Paradise
Under Spinning Lights
Ryan Calhoun
innerpartysystem
The Shoreline
VAN ATTA HIGH

they're all amazing. im listening to Lights Out Darling now :D
okay so let me talk about last night. our first movie night and we didnt even watch a movie! we started to but then dinner arrived and then..... we just said fuck it!
basically after everyone arrived i broke my screen door. moms not mad which is cool. it was a complete accident!
we then all went inside and hung out for a bit. we started the movie which was The Nightmare Before Christmas. stevens never seen it. i know, its hard to believe! well aparently he thinks its stupid anyways. hes fucking weird.
basically to sum up the night there was alot and i mean ALOT of sexual talk, truth talks, awkward talks, and lots and lots of laughter.
it was a great night. i cant wait until next friday.. thats the dinner party.
fun fun fun.
so walter is being a douchebag. oh and fyi he has a small penis!
im starving. my mom just tried bringing me pizza. um no. not really in the mood for that.
so today during 3rd block in notice that im lip ring is kind of in my mouth.. yeah the ball fell off. so then i go to tighten the other one and that one is stripped. so needless to say i look like i have a really bad case of herpes! there are erasers on the end of my bar.
i have to go to hot topic later to get some more.
so afternoon school is like now. i still have to go buy food from levin. this blog is kind of all over the place.

i hate being rushed.

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Monday, October 6, 2008 * 11:47 AM

drink up beautiful

I spiked your cup with angst, and a heart attack.
I've got so much trapped and it's all because of you.
So i figured you might like some back;


ive listened to that song a million times already.
its just love <3

sunday i went apple picking with my mom. what can i say.. it was so much fun. i am possibly the weirdest teenager ever. i like apple picking and going to bingo. and id rather bake then go to the mall. oh well. im loved.
i picked an apple for both steven and weston. westons apple was cosiderably larger then stevens but stevens was prettier :D
after we left the apple farm we went to rite aid to see steven. i gave him his apple and he told me he didnt want it. what a cuntpocket.
he tells me he ate it, should i believe him!?

yesterday was my first day of afternoon school english 12. i have to say, im pretty pumped for this class. the kids in there are all pretty chill and the teachers great so it should be fun. im not looking forward to government though.
so last night after i got home i called ches to have a little chat. well long story short she basically starts to have a panic attack because of what her boyfriend michael was doing. i kind of flipped. the shit that kid does to her is so fucking wrong.
you dont understand francesca. she is possibly the most genuine, beautiful, and real person i have ever met. and michael is taking that away from her. in my opinion he does not love her like he says he does, he uses her for some sort of image. maybe he wants to love her but because he is such a douchebag, the ice around his heart wont let him.
and the pain shes in.. it hurts to watch it.
so i said something to him.
well he didnt really like being called out on. so he starts arguing with me. of course he does. but then because hes only focused on himself he started bringing up other shit. such as me graduating and steven being a "butt pirate".. dude we were talking about how you treat ches. how does me graduating have anything to do with that!?
i dont know. i dont think he does either to be honest.
whatever, i said my peice. i just hope francesca is still allowed to talk to me.
yeah it sounds like bullshit because it is!


wednesday is movie day with weston, steven, walter, dannie, brandon, and francesca if she can still go that is. ugh! that little ordeal is so annoying.
anyways.. i guess justin from the doppler effect got kicked out because he was sent to jail!? yeah i have no idea. im trying to find out but its not really working..
okay im going to start working on a powerpoint slideshow for the day of silence. yes i know its not until april but whatever. i need to present it to levin and student leadership so i can get some feedback on what i want to plan. and i think that if i have a little bit of an example, they'll be more for it.





turns out today im playing the bad guy
but ill consider doign something good
if it fits my agenda
because i dont have tiem to think about you
i dont have time to worry about you

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Friday, October 3, 2008 * 6:22 AM

if you say the f-word, i'll say the n-word

so this week has been kind of stressfull. ive been here every day but for some reason im behind in like all my classes. not good. so this weekend im hitting the books and getting all my shit done.
wednesday after school i went to tinas house for the day. it turned out to be great fun actually. they have cable! so i watched project runway for 5 hours. who would not want to do that!?!
well tinas daughter sheri and her ignorant little friend were complete douchebags and would not stop saying the word faggot. so in turn i wouldnt stop saying the word nigger.
its my new favorite word now :D
needless to say they stopped because they dont like the word nigger because its "rude".
hahahahaha!
so yesterday was my first day of afternoon school. the class was government. ew!
but brian is in the class with me and turns out he's in my afternoon english class as well. SUH-WEET! he is gorgeous and a pretty nice guy too. this fat whore is in my government class though and i hate her. steven has to work with her. sucks for him :D
i need to do good in school. im so overwhelmed though that im afraid im not going to. stevens there for me though. he keeps reminding me that i can do it. and it does help. a ton.
thank you steven<33
ive barely had any classes today. in english we went to the library. i stayed in the library during second block to work on my essay and hang out with steven and rose. and i stayed there during third as well. so basically im only having one class today. math.. ew! but its okay because the student teacher is kind of hot. love you surek! [sp?]
oh god! what if he read this! oh noo!
haha.
so ive been rocking out to some pretty good bands all day..
check em outtt!
A Bird A Sparrow
School Boy Humor
Phone Calls From Home
Sing It Loud
i think thats it..
they are all fucking amazing! i cant wait to get internet so i can get some fucking musicccc! my ipod will be filled the first day!
okay maybe not that quick.. but you get the idea.

so i just found out steven is single again. bums me out because they are perfect for each other but i get where hes coming from. he told me it happened yesterday and he didnt tell me because he was scared to because he thought i would be mad.
steven- i am not mad! dont be scared to ever tell/ask me anything. just like you told me, remember? whatever makes you happy, ill be happy. your my bestest guy friend. i love you<3

okay well theres five minutes til lunch ends. i want to try and add my herion poem to my writing blog..
oh i have a tour of the whitney building at OCC today. so pumped!

posted by irenejayne at 6:22 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 * 12:36 PM

buttt Kat Von D is hotterrr ;D

way way way hotter!
the things i would do to her are looked down upon..

posted by irenejayne at 12:36 PM 0 Comments

* 9:26 AM

matthew lush is god

thank you to dee for telling me about him.
hes possibly the most gorgeous guy everr!
okay steven is more gorgeous ;D

posted by irenejayne at 9:26 AM 0 Comments