Tuesday, September 30, 2008 * 9:40 AM

some say im paranoid, i tell those people to fuck off :D

i just posted a poem i wrote in second block in like 5 minutes.
i love it. go read it on my writing blog..

Afterthoughts.

leave a comment and tell me what you think.
i dont have much time. maybe a few minutes, so this will be a short post.
yesterday i was at the mall for 4 hours. honestly thats the longest ive ever been at the mall. pathetic i know. i heard about it from ches.
so i found out about the hot topic job.
i didnt get it. apparently they put a freeze on the hiring. im still on the list to be considered when the unfreeze it but still it hurt. i was so disapointed. i thought i had it.
i cried. pathetic again.
but steven cheered me up later that night on the phone.
he has an obsession with brown.
so yeah thats about it.
afternoon school starts this week. mondays i have english and thursdays i have government. i decided to take gym next symester. why not have all my gyms in one right!?








ugh math class!!




Monday, September 29, 2008 * 9:25 AM

i feel like death has swallowed me whole

my weekend post is finally up. it was two weekends ago but whatever. i hope you enjoy reading it.
i dont want to be in school today but i am. yay for me!
im so sick its not even funny. my throat is constantly dry and hurting. ive been sneezy and &%$@!()*?<> for almost a week. this is not fun.
so this past weekend was horrible.
saturday was supposed to be fun. what a joke that turned out to be. courtney and i went to super gnarly fest. that was such a waste of money. im kinda pissed off about it.
i dont want to get into details because it'll probably make me mad again. and i do not want that. needless to say, there will be a talk soon.

schools going okay. i had a talk with steven about my fears about it. im scared ill do really good and get everyone proud of me and then i'll fuck up. thats just what i do. and its hard to get out of that thinking.
but he told me he used to be like that and that he still is a little bit. so im going to do like steven and think positive. not sure how good its going to work though.
i might be moving. well im pretty positive i will be moving.
i didnt really want to in the beginning but now im kind of looking forward to it. it will be a new start for my mom and i.
i already have plans for my room.
electric blue, white, and black=amazing!
im just really pissed off at the allens. the way their going about this whole this is pretty shitty considering they call us "family"..
im through with them. ches found a place on hamilton that i want to look at. its a 3 bedroom downstairs flat. it sounds pretty cool. still close to friends and still in fowlers district. now i just need to see what the rent is and if they accept pets.

today after school i think im going to the mall to get my kat von d poster. this poster had me jizzing like CRAZ-AY in the store saturday night. its fucking gorgeous. 4th block bell just went off so i have to go.
more tomorrow<3












and if i had something to say to you i'd whisper it softly,
kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise.




* 6:03 AM

"this post is all about the days 9-18-08 to 9-21-08"

So I donít know about you but I had one of the most amazing weekends ever! And because I like to relive everything and I know your dying to know what went down Iíll satisfy your craving and tell you :D

I must warn you though. It will be quite long. I mean I have to talk about Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday!

Thatís a lot.. So if you donít feel like sitting at your computer for a few hours then I suggest you go make a cake or watch your daily porn :D





Thursday:

Yes I know this is not part of the weekend but it was part of mine! So keep your comments to yourselves!

After 3rd block that day I went outside with Steven to wait for Weston to get there. I did this for two reasons. One- to see Weston! Duh! And two- so I could properly introduce them [be there for Steven so it wouldnít be way awkward]. I wound up being late for 4th block, oh well. It was worth it. So after school I hung out with Andrew for a little bit. We ate and talked. Same old, same old. And finally around 4:30 Steven and Weston came to pick me up. We got to Westcott around 5 and walked up and down Westcott street until 6ish.

There was this one way cool bookstore where a cat resided. It had a random massage chair that Weston ìstraddledî and Jesus candles. The Jesus candles weirded me out, so did Weston straddling a massage chair. He was getting into it. There was also this weird music that was playing. I donít want to say it sounded African, but it sounded African. I know it wasnít because it wasnít an African store. Thatís just how it sounded. But it was pretty good. It got Weston dancing and soon Steven.

I didnít dance.

I just looked at them funny. :D

After we left that bookstore we went to another one. I didnít like this one as much but it did have some pretty interesting books. They were to expensive. And to quiet. I had to leave because Weston and Steven were making me laugh so much. After about 5 min they came outside and Weston had some weird water with him. He wanted me to try it so I did. Steven said the aftertaste tasted like dirt. At first it tasted good but then the aftertaste was horrible. It did taste like dirt. Weston said it tasted like cashews. Where he got that I donít know. After walking back to the car to get my phone [I left it in there and was flipping out the whole time!!] we met up with DeAsia. We then had her taste the weird water. She said it tasted like crayons. Her and Weston must be smoking some really good crack because that water did not taste like cashews and it definitely didnít taste like crayons. It tasted like dirt.

After standing and talking for a little bit we went over to stand in line. By then it was at least 6:45. After a little while some white guy came out and told us we had to move away from the door or walk down the street or something because we couldnít block the street and there was a meeting inside. Then he proceeded to say that the show was at 8. What. The. Fuck. I told him to suck my dick. So we basically said fuck it and went over to the bench and hung out for awhile. I made some new friends. Matt, Ricky, and some guy with his girlfriend. I think Mattís gay. Ricky was cute for a black guy. And the other kid was fucking gorgeous. So was his girlfriend actually!

Eventually Erin found her way over to me. I can not stand her. She knows now. But to be creepy Weston started asking where she lived and if she could go to her party, things like that. Well she wasnít getting creeped out, I mean sheís fucking dense. It made Weston sad. Steven just started talking to her all nice and sugary sweet. I wanted to choke him. I started biting my fingers to pieces so I wouldnít say anything. I went home and discovered I had a bruise on my finger from biting so hard. She had went inside and came back out with a poster she made for Breathe Carolina. Can somebody say groupie? It looked like shit too. But the funniest part of the whole ìErin Experienceî was when she was coming back over to show us the poster, she tripped. Oh my god. I fucking lost it. I could not stop laughing!!! It was hysterical. Before she left though I decided to fuck with her and tell her that Tom and I had went to the movies a few times. You should have seen the look on her face. You could tell she was pissed. She was. She went and told Tom that I said that he and I were dating. Sheís just one dramatic girl. Any who, after hanging out for awhile, it was finally time to go inside. Sean came outside to tell everyone what was going on. I yelled out his name and he said ìShut the fuck up!!î. Oh my god. Funniest thing ever. I was dying. He then came over and apologized. It was all good in the hood though.

After getting inside I got a phone call. It was from Zak. Apparently he couldnít get in because there was no more room and they sold out. So because Iím Irene and I know people I got him in. I have to admit it was pretty spectacular. I had to give Sean the money drug deal style so no one would know. Zak totally loved me after that. Apparently he was on the treadmill thinking he should come to the show and then he noticed his leg was cramping so he stopped running, went home, showered, and got to the show.

Lets talk about the show now.

It sucked. Well parts of it anyhow. The Morning Of played first. The sound quality was terrible. It was bad. And it was so crowded I couldnít even see them so I said whatever and just goofed around with Weston, Steven, and DeAsia. That was pretty fun. Weston kept on crouching so he could see the ìshort person perspectiveî! So funny.

After they played we went outside to get some hair and I said hi to my cousin who I had saw earlier but didnít feel like saying hi. I actually feel like a bitch because I thought that he was some stuck up asshole. He still might be, you never know, but he seemed pretty chill that night. He said heís proud of me because Iím straightedge and I decided to finish school. I have to say, Iím pretty proud myself. I introduced him to everyone, but I introduced them all as my fiancÈís because they kind of are. I mean I proposed to DeAsia and Weston the first night I met them. Then I proposed to Steven that night. But Westonís in the lead because I proposed twice! Haha. Any who, JR said that he was curious as to how mine and DeAsiaís babyís would turn out. She got all defensive and accused him of being raciest. It was hysterical.

We then proceeded to go inside to watch Brokencyde. Theyíre sound is very punk/screamo/crunk. It was pretty amazing. They put on a really good show. I mean there were laser lights and strobe lights and mini disco ball things. Holy crow I got dizzy from it all. Weston, Steven, DeAsia, and I just danced all ghetto. We couldnít stop laughing. The crowd kept on doing this sign in the hair. Not sure what it was or how to do it so DeAsia and I threw up the sign for vagina in sign language!

GET CRUNK MUTHAFUCKA GET CRUNK!!

Funny stuff right there. after they played we went outside for yet another fresh air break. We wound up going to the store across the street to get a drink. And then we ran into a few girls that we met at the Flyleaf show at the fair. We talked to them for a bit before we went back inside to see Every Avenue. Well when I was going in to see them, Courtney called. So I went outside and told her everything that was going on. Zak came outside and they talked for a bit. It made her happy which is good. A short while after that we left because Weston had to be home.

The night was amazing and possibly one of my favorites.



Friday:

This was my very first dinner party. I cant wait to have more. School was the same. Nothing really excited happened. After school Courtney, Andrew, and I hung out until everyone got there. Court and I got in a little argument though. I kind of flipped on her and told her that she was contradicting herself which isnít good. She took my advice, I think. Haha. Well yeah, she did. Steven was supposed to be coming but he had to work. When he said he would come he didnít know. It sucked because he wanted to be there badly and it would have been so much more fun with him there. At around 5 Walter and Ches showed up. Walter brought pasta salad and Ches brought her brownie cookie bars. After that DeAsia showed up with her spanish rice. And finally Weston showed up with.. nothing! Haha. I just wound up having my mom make pizza and wings. It was all uber delicious though. Especially the spanish rice and pasta salad. Oh and the brownie cookie bars!! Those were fucking excellent! After we all ate we went outside for a bit.

Boy was that a spectacle. There was a point when I called Walter a nigger, not knowing there were black people behind me. I cut my foot trying to get inside quickly. Walter wouldnít stop laughing at me!! DeAsia wanted to play twister really badly so we called Jeremy and had him bring over a slice box. Well he wound up making like seven trips because turns out we needed like 98739287 boxes to make a decent twister board. We also needed a slice box to make a spinner. Before we made the board though we decided to take the marker Jeremy brought over and give Walter tattoos. With a permanent marker. We drew a penis and vagina and a large breasted monster on his back. We gave him a tramp stamp on his back that said ìBobs onlyî. We gave him an old fashioned anchor on his bicep that said ìbig daddyî. There were black guys on this stomach named Kunta. His left nipple belonged to me. And his right nipple belonged to gay but sex. He represents 315 nigga! And the Ricans! Oh god. It was possibly the funniest thing ever. DeAsia and I were also drawn on. For some odd reason I had the names of the HB guys drawn on my chest and so did DeAsia. Her right nipple belonged to me! Haha.. I was just collecting them that night. So we finally got to the twister board. It was possibly the ghetto-ist thing I have ever seen. Because my best friends are a bunch of pervs that named each circle after something sexual.

B is for Blow Jobs

R is for Rectum

I cant remember any of the other ones. Just know that it was hysterical. Ches, Walter, DeAsia, and Weston played. Ches only played one round. Walter always got out. And Weston always won. Because the spinner was so ghetto and it didnít really work well, Ches and I just tried coming up with directions to get them into the most contorted sexual positions ever! Towards the end of the game it looked like DeAsia was pleasuring Weston, in more ways then one. And vice versa. We have pictures.

Hopefully Iíll get them up somehow. After the game everyone went inside except for me and Weston. We sat on the porch in this weird way. I was in between his legs with my head on his knee and he was leaning forward with his head on my shoulder. It kept me warm! Then Ches came out and then Court. And then soon everyone. We all just hung out on the porch and talked. Walter and DeAsia sang very loudly and very bad to Honor Bright and Ludo. It scared me. Ches and Andrew left because they had to be home. After they left the rest of us took two blankets and laid them on the ground and cuddled on the cement. Haha. As uncomfy as it sounds it was extremely comfortable. DeAsia left soon after that. Followed by Courtney. Walter and Weston left at about midnight. I went inside and passed out!! I was soo exhausted. But I went to sleep with a smile on my face and stomach full of awesome food.



Saturday:

This day was boring for the first part so Iíll just get to the second half of the day. Sarah came over and for some odd reason its weird between us. Like we never have anything to talk about anymore. And for us thatís abnormal. Well she wanted to do something and so did I. So I tried coming up with some stuff but she didnít want to do anything. I was getting sort of annoyed. So then I thought, well why not ask Weston and Steven if they want to go to the movies. They both had money and they both wanted to go. So they left it up to me to decide what movie and what time. I decided on Dane Cooks new movie My Best Friends Girl. It was at 9:30. Sarah kind of got mad at me because I was basically ditching her but I really didnít feel like sitting there all night until she left. At least Iíd be doing something. Sarah actually wound up going with us. Weston got to my house so we could follow him to Stevens because Iím a creepo and I wanted to see where Steven lived. I donít know his address but I know his street and what house. Expect me outside your window at night, Steven!! :D We got to the mall and went upstairs to get the tickets. Oh boy was this fun. Weston told Steven not to go to the old woman. Well Sarah and I thought it would be okay for us to go to her because we look older. Apparently this old woman is the devil reincarnated and she IDís everyone. We didnít have ID so we didnít get our tickets. But Steven and Weston who look 12 got theirs. What the fuck is up with that! So we had them go back around to get our tickets. But the old woman saw them and called security.

OH MY GOD! I wanted to die! But luckily Weston saw one of his friends and he got our tickets for us. I love that guy now!

The movie was amazing. I love Dane Cook. Steven and I creamed ourselves. After the movie I didnít want to go home. I mean it was only 11:30. Wayy to early! So we went to Rojiís. I love that fucking place now. Im craving some bubble tea as I type this. Itís a wicked cool atmosphere and the tea is incredible. I had Lychee Bubble Tea. Holy crow was that good. The tapioca balls were weird at first, there very chewy and slimy, but I got used to it. We all just sat there and talked and laughed. It was very chill and relaxing. Rojiís closed at one so we left but stood outside for about a half hour just talking. We then parted ways with hugs and ìIíll talk to you laterî. Sarah and I went back to my house and we talked about the night. She was glad she went. I was too.



Sunday:

Nothing really to say about this day. My mom and I just spent the day together. We went to the casino but we got there late so we couldnít play bingo. We actually got lost on the way up there. Well not lost but we drove to far, so we had to turn around and back track. It was fun though. It was just me and my mom and we got to talk and sort of catch up. Once we got to the casino we went and played some penny machines. I lost my money right away. I donít think Iím meant to gamble. It just doesnít work out for me. But we found this one game called Lucky Seals where we won a $120. We left after that so we didnít lose it all again. Haha. After we left we met up with Tina at chinese. We were all starving!! I havenít had chinese in forever and I love the place we went to. Uber delicious. After chinese we went to Wal-Mart because we had to get a few things. I got 4 new books. A series and a regular book. And I got some blonde hair dye. After Wal-Mart we went home and hung out some more and I dyed my hair. It didnít turn out as I had planned. Instead of a bleach blonde it was more a peanut butter color. Eww. Thatís just nasty. Basically I got to spend time with my mom which is rare these days. It was fun. And well deserved.









I know that was really really really really really really long but it was so worth it!




Wednesday, September 17, 2008 * 9:26 AM

i love the word jiz

its just one nifty word.
:D

so i said id finish about the whole prom thing. yes, i know its still only september. and prom isnt until june. but i was thinking about my dress and how amazing its going to be and then all of a sudden it hit me. why not ask weston to prom!? apparently hes been to 6 already so hes a prom pro. but he said yes, and he might bedazzle his converse to match mine. still have to work on that issue.
i cant wait to see my dress. just imagine a funky/punk ballerina. with bedazzled converse to match! im thinking the colors will be an electric blue and an emerald green. it'll be gorgeous.

i now understand what courtney meant when she said she was "happy to see her best friend find someone". true neither times worked out for me. but i understand all the same. one of my best friends has possibly found someone and seeing him happy makes me extremely happy! i am trying sososososo hard not to be nosy and all up in their grill, yo! and holy crow is it hard! i want to know whats going on every second, but then i become annoying and annoying isnt good.
annnnnnnd i introduced them. way cool.

so yesterday after school i went to hot topic to get my jeffree star cupcake tote and i asked erica if they were hiring AND THEY ARE!! so i filled out an aplication quick and erica did something that surprised me.. she set me up with an interview date! WHATTTT!!??!!??
i am so fucking excited! i have wanted to work there for like 2 years and im finally getting my shot to. well almost. i have to get through the interview first. but its next monday at 4 and joe is going to do the interview because erica knows me to well. my only problem is that after i dye my hair a natural color, theres a possiblity that i might get hired at the only place that will let me have purple, gree, orange, pink, and blue hair!
WHAT THE FUCKKK!!??!!??
its all good in the hood though :D

i started writing my first story last night. not sure how long its going to be. i dont even really know where its going, my fingers just type and the result is amazing. im inspired by steven. not the story line, but the character.
the character looks like steven and has some traits of him.. so it should turn out to be amazing.

i have to pee. really badly.
the bathroom is calling my name!
come to think of it, i havent peed all day long!




Tuesday, September 16, 2008 * 9:34 AM

wishthefamilytree

i was in the paper.
heres the article..


Fowler, SU team up for mobile arts work

SU students will lead 49 teens in a creative writing and photography project.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
By Sapna Kollali
Staff writer

Syracuse University students and faculty plan to unveil a mobile classroom today that will help Fowler High School students complete a community arts project.

English and art students at Fowler will tour the Mobile Literacy and Arts Bus, or the MLAB, and learn more about the multimedia project they will work on this semester.

The project will have Syracuse University students lead Fowler students in creative writing and photography exercises, then help them edit and publish their work in a zine, a small-circulation self-printed publication. The work may also be on display at The Warehouse.

Fowler English teacher Adam Lutwin said he is excited to be part of the launch and to see the work his students create. His 24 English 11 students and 25 of Eric Williams' photography students are participating.

"The students are excited to be the first ones to try it out," Lutwin said. "I hope they get a chance to show off the skills they learn all through high school but they never get recognized for, and also that they see some types of writing that they don't normally get a lot of exposure to."

Lutwin said students will practice different types of creative writing, including poetry, narratives, short stories and possibly plays, with a focus on family and identity. They will also borrow the lab's digital cameras to document their lives outside of school, which he hopes will help illustrate their writing.

"We can only follow them to the doors of this school. We really want to get a glimpse of their everyday surroundings through these photos," he said.

Last year, using $30,000 from a state grant and a gift from The Pomco Group, 10 SU students in a social sculpture class purchased a 30-foot-long 1984 recreational vehicle, gutted and redesigned the outside and inside of it, and rebuilt it into a mobile classroom, sculpture professor Marion Wilson said. It now has about $30,000 of equipment, also purchased with a grant - laptops, printers, digital cameras, projectors, workstations and wireless capabilities - said Wilson, also the director of community initiatives for the College of Visual and Performing Arts.

Fowler junior Irene Rao said she can't wait to see the renovated RV. She said she has always wanted to be an author and is excited about the idea of her work being published.

"It will be a fun project, and it will be nice to be out of school," she said. "Even if it's just outside, it's a different setting. It's good to do that sometimes. It helps you think better, be more creative."




amazing isnt it!? im wicked happy with how it came out. she didnt mess up anything i said. so im wicked excited. ive been telling everyone.
so needless to say, the MLAB people came today. it was so much fun, the RV was pretty cool. on one side it said MLAB in huge grafitti letters. the inside was completely empty. haha. the walls were dry earase/magnetic boards. and all along the bottem of the wall were little drawers. but instead of drawers it was cushions. it was amazing. then there were 2 benchs along the wall where we could sit and work. there was a mini library full of poetry and english books. it was pretty neat.
we're starting our first project next week. we got our journals today and im going to make the cover look amazing.

so yesterday was a pretty decent day. i was late for school but i still went. courtney didnt go. it disappointed me but oh well. but then after school ches, andrew, and i went to the mall to get my thumbdrive. i wound up getting my thumbdrive, a pin that says I AM SO BLOGGING THIS, and my kat von d poster that i have been waiting forever to get!!
its amazing. just imagine kat von d shirtless with hands gropping her boobs. ohmygod. totally jiz-tastic!

so i talked to weston last night. im in love with that kid. thursday at the show im having justin from the morning of say "weston will you marry irene" over the mic. it will be amazing. and i asked him to prom, he said yes. more on that tomorrow.
gotta go<3




Friday, September 12, 2008 * 5:50 AM

"they're going to love you, irene"

okay so i finished my other poem.
here it is..


Present/Future
by irenejayne

I am a different person
yet still the same.
I am an adult
with a child's heart.
I am a human canvas
my artwork speaks to the world.
I've got the straightedge
it spreads through me,
like smallpox in in the colonies.
I've got pride, I've got choices.
I am genuine, phenomenal, and optimistic.
I am cynical, typical, and overbearing.
I am a struggling senior
whose cap and gown dream seems light years away.
I will be a magician,
turning ugly to beautiful.
I am going to be a writer
whose works of love, mystery, and horror will be adored by all.
I will be me
for now and eternity.


so theres that one. what do you think? id like some honest opinions.
so i just got interviewed by a reporter from the post standard. it was pretty nifty. she asked me questions about the MLAB thing were doing in english. its an RV thing that comes to our school ever tuesday. its got computers and cameras and everything tech on it. our class and the photography class are the only classes doing it. im excited. i cant wait for the paper to come out now.

andrew isnt in school today. it kind of irritates me because its only the first week of school. i know he said he wasnt feeling good yesterday but still. its only for a few hours, he can suck it up. i mean im in school. now thats surprising. i dont think ive ever gone the whole first week. but here i am, its friday and im here.

[this little part goes to everyone that thought i wouldnt succeed,
im hear to prove you wrong. so when i do.. go eat your words and fuck yourself!!]

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

anywho.. saturday there might be a dinner party. not sure yet. if there is, i have to clean the house. i have no food though, so there might not be dinner.. dont ask.
oh and courtney, i am not popular. so its not sickening..
im just known by all, and everyone loves me. and its great!

okay i might update later.. i mean it is only 9:16 am. nothing really exciting has happened. except the whole getting interviewed thing..




i didn't mean to be so forward
there are some things you should know:
he loves you like a truck stop screw
when you're alone he adores me
you'd best get it straight, say it.
when you're all dressed you just bore me





this is what perfection looks like..
learn it, live it, love it.
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Thursday, September 11, 2008 * 9:20 AM

"im excited to see where you take this"

so in english today we started working on two poems. one is an "i am from" poem and the other one is a "where im going" poem. i've already completed the "i am from" poem. here it is..
let me know what you think..


Past
by irenejayne

I am from unbearably cold winters
and smoldering summers;
never in between.
I am from two-toned buildings
shared with people from all over.
I am from the reservations
and the land where green is in excess.
I am from a tired mother
and a father who seemed invisible.
I am from the church
the Hail Mary's and Our Father's, I dont believe anymore.
I am from a zoo
dogs, cats, hamsters, and birds.
I am from adventures to corner stores and car dealerships
only later did I learn I ran away.
I am from no brothers and sisters,
no friends to account for.
I am from loneliness,
not anymore.


i havent completed the "where im going" poem. that one is giving me a little trouble. ive talked to the teacher and he agreed that i should do the poem however i want. because the guidelines he has dont make sense, so hes giving me room to be creative. i like that in a teacher. hes a student teacher by the way.

i got to school late today, thanks weston! its all his fault. hes just so darn fun to talk to on the phone that i didnt want to get off. we got off the phone at like 12:30 but then text each other until like 12:45 almost one. my plan was to go to bed around 9 because i was so tired during the day. sarah wound up coming up though and she didnt leave until like 10. then i was on the phone with weston. we talked about everything. what embarresing music was on our ipod. ive discovered that i have really good music. the only embarresing thing on there is kanye west and lupe fiasco. and to some people their not embarresing. we talked about movie taste. he told me about this movie where an old lady gets attacked by a refridgerator and a guy shoots up so much that his arm gets cut up in jail. AMAZING, right!!?? i guess its one of the most stupidest movie ever but now i need to watch it. its also very depressing i hear. he then shared a short story he wrote in high school. it was amazing. hes making a blog specifically to put the rest of the stories in so i can read them. it was very creepy but amazing. we also talked about ourselves, ex- funfacts about us, how long we've known we're bi, if we've come out fully. it was just a really fun and interesting convo. oh and i cant forget to mention crimson! haha.
he stalks me i guess. i mean he text me this morning telling me that hes sorry i got to school late!! what. the. fuck! how did he know. its creepy.
now i cant wait until the 18th. im trying to get my friend shamus to go so he can meet him. if they were together it would be divine.
i found out that means heavenly today. :D

im freezing and i have to pee. but theres no sense in going to the bathroom right now because the bell is going to ring in like 5 minutes. im going to math in a few. i didnt do the homework, oops!
comments would be loverly!!














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Wednesday, September 10, 2008 * 9:18 AM

i saw a highway of diamonds with nobody on it

i've stumbled on the side of twelve misty mountains,
i've walked and i've crawled on siz crooked highways,
i've stepped in the middle of seven sad forests,
i've been out in front of a dozen dead oceans,
i've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard.




i have wanted to blog for 3 days now. i just havent had the time to get to a computer. or a computer to get to. im sort of irritated right now. my us history teacher has no control over my class and i cant concentrate when there are conversations next to me about "why rueben broke up with his girlfriend" and "beyonce and jay-z's wedding rings are tattoos!"
its really fucking annoying!
so i started listening to my ipod and then my teacher comes over and tells me i cant so i ask him if he can tell the class to shut up then and he says no!
are you fucking serious!!
you've been a teacher for 13 fucking years and you cant tell the kids to shut up!?!?!?!?!?!
then i ask him if i can take a book home so i can get the work done and again he says no. something is seriously wrong with this fucking teacher.
im starving, im tired, im annoyed, i really need a fucking show now. the 18th could not get here sooner.

so i've been wanting to blog about friday ever since, everybody's getting sick of hearing about it. so here goes..
friday was amazing. i finally met the mysterious weston. he is amazing! if he's reading this I LOVE YOU! haha.
just kidding. but seriously, he is one cool kid with freaky blue eyes and a love of secrets and licking cheeks!
the show was incredible.
the first band sucked. they were a bunch of high school kids with bad attitudes.
sorry not for me.
lebonese blonde was amazing! i never knew matt had such an amazing voice. i was blown away.
take aim was of course great. i talked to noah and king about the street team and how neither courtney or i have great internet source. i have none and courtney isnt allowed on for a long period of time. which would be bad for a street team. they say its fine because their losing ross. and they need to find 3 new members. so for them a street team wouldnt be good right now.
this changes everything was horrible as usual. i wont get into that.
last but not least the doppler effect and honor bright played.
what can i say, i was dripping with sweat by the time the show ended. tom has a huge gash in his forehead he was rocking so hard!hes okay though :D
we all felt like we peed our pants because we were so sweaty! it was great.
we hung outside for a bit after talking and what not. everyone went to the store and got 2liters and candy.
we're healthy kids, we swear!

during the night though there was this hippy/acid chick! it was so funny. during the show she was dancing like she was calling satan from the firey depths of hell. at one point she told dee and i that she was from seatle and that we were awesome and she loved us. creepy, no?
franco, dee, court, and i changed our names so she wouldnt stalk us.
franco was jessica. dee was jasmine. court was rhonda. and i was hannah.
it was amazing!!
when we went outside she followed us and no lie, chased me in a circle twice. thats when i grabbed franco, i mean jessica, and we ran to the store. we were all over at the store enjoying our frothy beverages when she came over with two cups of water and asked us if we wanted any. i cant show you how because this is written and online. but needless to say it was hilarious. i had to protect dee, i mean jasmine, because she was so scared. haha.
at one point brandon asked her if we saw the line of coke in the store. her eyes became buggy and you could tell she was feining!
it was so funny.

so that was my friday night. i know you wish you were me. it happens all the time.
so i know i said i was pissed of earlier in this blog, im not anymore.
i have friendship bread! whoo-hoo! that bread is so fucking delicious.
yesterday after school andrew and i were supposed to go to the GLBTQ meeting. he got the bus scheduale mixed up so we missed the bus and never made it down there. oh well. we went to the library and i stole a giant sunflower and took pictures on the way home. so much fun.
im now uploading pictures for my myspace. finally right!!
sarah might come over today, not sure if shes going to though.
i have math and social homework to do.





i have a strong feeling schools going to be good for me this year.




Friday, September 5, 2008 * 11:15 AM

first day of school

it turned out to be amazing!
i love my classes so far and the teachers are pretty sweet. hopefully ill do wicked good this year. i have a feeling i will.

court and i look uh-mazing!
courts wearing dark jeans with a purple awesome shirt thats over a blue polka dotted cami. and her blue mocs. AND my blue bow!
im wearing my dark jeans with my grey shirt. and because my grey shirt is so low cut i have a cami on under it. i look like a total slut! but i also have my new pink converse! and my pink bow!!
we look uh-mazing!
oh by the way, i got my hair cut! its like a girly chic mullet. and i dyed it brown!
i know, i was shocked to. but it looks really really good. im surprised i actually like it.




so i went to the fair twice. to see Honor Bright and Flyleaf *coughstevencough*. it was all amazing. but in the process i met this guy named steve who turned out to be a total creepo. it gives me chills just thinking about it.
this blog is really short and kind of all over the place, but i have to go talk to a counceler. then go get a fucking energy drink cause i need to stay up for the show tonight!!!
it will be amazing!!

HONOR BRIGHT
THE DOPPLER EFFECT
TAKE AIM
LEBONESE BLONDE
KID VS. HERO

and some other band!!








oh and to the anonymous commenter..
no drama intended, just what im thinking and feeling.
i mean this is MY blog so i have every right to say what i want, correct?














ill blog next week. it'll be better then this. i promise!